Turn away from light

Bite-sized pieces. That's how much hate that has been shattered around the world, and has been grown in every one of us. I have recently come across some arguments and some news from my family. And let me ask you guys viewers and readers out there, would you kill someone? Okay, so i know, definitely all of you would tell me " of course not, that is so shallow". Okay, let me rephrase my question a little bit, would you kill that someone who has killed someone close to you? So everyone's started thinking now. Likewise, that happens to me, except i only thought for 1 second, and told myself, i don't care who killed, who's behind and everything, i would kill them all. Call me shallow or unrealistic or whatever you want, and that's just how i am.
Pain breeds vengeance, which eventually turns it into a chain of hatred.

So, like i said before, i have stopped the frequency of my posts, relatively, of course due to not much has been happening and stuff, but i didnt feel the need to blog, just about "whenever i feel like it", i only blog because i wanted to say something about what happened, and of course that goes to, WHENEVER i feel like it as well. So, for some of you guys would probably know, my gf's been back from Malaysia, on Sunday. And her skin has been infected by some sort of bacteria, that caused her to have little red dots at random spots throughout her whole body. Of course, as a boy friend, i would feel sorry for her, but there's nothing much i can do, except applying medications and stuff for her.

gf's arms with medications O_O

There has been a couple of photos that i took and have been wanting to post it up ever since i have taken them, but somehow, just haven't really got the mood to actually post it. Black Tea's a reminder for me for all those days, when i studied super hard for exams, and all i eat during night time, when i study were chocolate blocks, and black tea with insane amount of brown sugar. I have always been a fan of high sugar leveled black tea, with a mixture of full cream milk. One of my original favourite from the past, and home made of course :). So like i have said before, gf's been back, so life got a little busier, and tat just means more stuff to blog about. I have heavily stopped playing dota for the past 2 days, because i didn't have a chance to, and gf's been bugging to accompany her instead. But nevertheless, we still ended up making some chocolate mud cake, for pre-dinner purposes.

Lipton's black tea packages before making a tea

Gf's new pencil case ordered from eBay

Before going back to malaysia, my gf actually bought me a wallet for my presents for christmas/bday/anniversay or what not. Have to say, that wallet was kinda like my aim for this year, i was planning to save up to buy that wallet, and i have decided that's all i really wanted for this year or any other year. I have no intention to go all out to buy the branded bags, cause that would just be a waste of money. So moving on to the real talk, for all you guys who don't know about this, i have already lost nearly 5 kg's ever since my gf has been gone, and during that period, my mum was gone as well, due to that, and having some pressures with me all the time, and not eating all too well, i haven't been gaining weights, and in fact has lost so much. That's all i hear from my gf these 2 days, " cant believe u became so thin, cant believe u became so thin". zzzz

3 freaking overpriced dollars/pillows/whatever-fuck-u-wanna-call-them LOL, that my gf bought in malaysia

Anyways, figured this post would be relatively interesting and longer post compared to most, of course. Sometimes i thought it has been fading away, but it hasn't. Guess everyone's short sighted, quoted from NANA TV, you dont realise alot of things when you have them, but when u lost them, u realised that u haven't been treasuring them at all in the past. So treasure what you have, with all you have got, afterall, u only got this one chance to prove yourself this, so why not give it ur hardest?

Loves,
Ideal

Song in a mirror Pt. 2

This is a bet. This is a gamble, and life would always be a gamble. There are always certain risks in life, for us to grab but sometimes, we don't want to risk, so therefore, we miss out on a lot of things. It's been a whle since i last blogged, and honestly speaking, i don't feel guilty at all. I have been pretty lazy recently, and haven't been doing all that much except for editting and reworking on my resume and cover letters for future work opportunities. For those of you, who know me personally, i am sure you guys all know i am graduating this year. There's just alot of stuffs for me to sort out this year. Must say, i am half excited, and half scared. World has always been frightening and always with surprises, be it good and bad.

I actually went out with sarah on friday. Haven't seen her for all holiday, so juz thort maybe we should catch up and all. She has changed a bit, with her hair fully dyed brown and stuff. LOL, and of course she looks better this way. Me, on the other hand, have freaking short hair compared to last time she last seen me. Asked some people for opinions on my hairstyles, most adults say i look alot more mature and better with shorter hair. Friends on the other hand, don't mind all too much, and just say, i look good either with short or long hair, which kinda makes me hard to decide which kinda hairstyle to go for. To be honest, the reason i dun like my current hair style all too much is that, its hard to "groom" up before i go out LOL. when i am with my longer hair, all i had to do was blow dry, straighten, then wax/spray. But on the other hand, when i dun go out, having longer hair just annoys the hell out of me. So i am still deciding whether to go for longer hair or stay with short.

So back to my original topic saying sarah and i went out. It wasnt too bad at all, eventhough we didn't do much. All we did was, went for lunch, then went to shop at garden city, cause apparently she needed some earphones. Man, this reminds me of how me and ken went to the city when we were 1st year students. We would always go to the city, head off to shops like targets or myers, and just make fun of everything that's there. Even went into toy shop, and recall how we used to be little kids, and loved these pointless toys to bits.

Speaking of that, I should probably organise a get together with all my good friends when uni starts. And hopefully it would be a blast. First off, we would ALWAYS need to have a meal BEFORE doing something, then we would actually go do something meaningful, which i havent got it figured out. For all my readers and viewers out there, if you guys can think of something interesting to do, please let me know. All the best for now, would be posting relatively soon i suppose. Much love

Ideal.

Ocean Way Sessions

I believe everything will go according to my will, if i am positive. That's why its always best to be positive. Sorry havent been blogging for around 2/3 days, and i just thort, maybe sometimes shorter posts are needed to be there to fill my blog with large varieties of posts, every now and then. There's a couple of things i would like to share with you all, and it doesnt really explain what i have been doing for the past few days.

Today's i came across a saying from one of my most visited web, saying "nevermind tomorrow, today is the day". This saying, originated back when i was little, and my mum always used to tell me how i shudnt leave everything to the last, and rush things last minute. And eventho i am nearly 21 years old, only 2 weeks away, i still feel no matter how grown up i become, in my mum's eyes, i am still a little baby. I say this and mean it in a good way, cause for me, i am a child, who always have my mum beside me all the time. Eventhough, my mum's been coming here quite frequently, i still feel as if i am seeing her everyday. Everyday my mum calls me, and asking me how am i and stuff like tat, and sometimes it makes me wonder how long can her love extend. I am really glad to have a mum like her.

Been talking to sarah quite a lot these few days, and probably would end up going out with her this friday. Havent seen her in a long ass time, but figured, we should see each other before uni starts, and i dunno how pam's side is doing as well. This holiday would soon come to an end, and i have no idea how time passes so quick. My mum's coming back today, and that means i can say bye bye to all these cooking and cleaning obligations ever since she went back to malaysia. But eventho she means alot to me, sometimes, she can be a hassle, especially when my girl is over, and sometimes, i cant be too close to her haha, cause it wud be all too awkward if not.

I recently changed my blog title to "The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning." Because it enlightened me. I have planned to change my title every now and then to inspire people so, people can keep visiting my blog, not because just to let them know how i live my life, but also give inspirations to people hopefully. So this time, i am pretty sure how u guys interpreted this particular title, but for me, it kinda reminds me of my life. Last time, when i had alot of shits on, i used to always think, " ok thats it, that's the end of me" but when i came across this quote, it always hit me really hard. What happened today may seem like the end, but can be a beginning for something yet to happen. This quote extends itself to far far beyond just the stuff between me and the others. It kinda teaches me, how life can be cruel at times, but it isn't gonna stay like that forever, so just wait and see, The world is round, what destroys us, can well be what rebuilds us :) So let us rejoice, and witness the beauty of this world.


Loves,
ideal

Resentment and Winter sleep

So hey guys, sorry for not being consistently to blog everyday, but i still do keep my promises to at least post once every 2 days. There hasnt been alot that actually happened, besides me playing games and stuffs like that. I have actually casted two commentaries in 3 days. What an achievement, so for all you fans out there, i am glad that u guys havent given up on me haha. Moving on to other stuffs, I dunno what have i done to actually, make me think of the anime show, called NANA. That anime was hell intense, and i finished all the episodes in less than 2 days. It consists of 50 something episodes, but nevertheless i finished it. I still remember vividly, how that anime show, impacted me, and i think it's one of the reason that i got 2 more piercings done on my left ear, in one go, the next day or so hahaha. Well, if you guys don't know the show, please do have a try at it. All the information can be read by visiting these websites:
Animenfo.com
Animenewsnetwork.com

For wallpapers, just go to animepaper.net

My mum's gonna come back on next week's tuesday, so hopefully, there wont be alot of stuffs for me to sort out anymore, i am pretty sick of over-organising stuffs for my side, and just seriously cannot be screwed doing anything more, except for myself. My cousin's been helping me and what not, so i aint fussed all too much. Today, when he came back from school, he was asking me to go IGA, down the road, to pick up some shopping, for tonight's burgers meal. Just a couple of crumbed chicken meat, some cheese and milk, with some buns.

It's been a while, since i actually went to IGA, because mum kept asking me to go to Woolworths to do grocery shopping, because items and stuffs from Woolworths,  are alot cheaper than IGA, but it's 4/5 mins further from IGA. I was too lazy to go all the way out to Woolworths, so ended just going to IGA for a while. Matt's having some stuffs planned for tomorrow night, and i have asked sarah to go, but she was saying she doesnt wanna go because she wudnt know most of the people there, which i dont blame her. Probably just gonna be 5/6 people having a dinner, and going home, simple night is always more treasurable than a trashy night. Kinda talked to matt, about what's going on with me just then, indeed felt better than talking a little while haha. Appreciate all of you guys alot when it comes to these stuffs.

One last thing that actually made me so proud is that, i have started having fruits feasts tonight yet again. I have stopped a while ago, cause i was plain lazy, but because i have bought these the other day, if i dont eat them sooner or later, they wud be expired and all, so i figured, why not eat it now? I actually cut banana's, kiwi's, oranges and grapes, and put them onto a plate, i like to make things a little fancier, so i can eat happily haha. And yes, i hate grapes, because they are always too sweet, and high in sugar, but i didn't have a choice.

Normal post today guys, but hope you guys enjoyed it. Signing off.

Much love,
Ideal

Lamp posts, with raindrops

Hey ya all. It's 11.54pm right now, and i figure, that maybe after posting this, i might go to sleep. I have just finished casting commentaries for today, so hopefully i would have them up by tomorrow. Actually, there isnt a whole lot for me to say, for these 2 days. The reason i didnt post anything last night, was because i never did alot of stuff to post about, and moreover, was not really in the mood. Well, anyway, moving onto the real talk.


Posting once a day or once every 2 days, have been seen as an obligation, but somehow, it is not a very harsh and strict obligation nevertheless, because it actually feels pretty good after you write something down, about what you have done for the past 2 days or so. The big thing about today was that, i actually met ken. We havent seen each other for such a long time, and moreover, he was asking to meet up. My original plan was to actually go to the city, and walk around a bit, cause generally city is the place where there are discounts and sales on. So i just thought, maybe i can pick up some decent stuff for relatively low prices.No matter how cheap shopping is, it defeats the purpose, if you cant go. And that's exactly what happened today. It was burning hot today, and was literally 37 degree. Me, matt and ken, all thought, might as well bail on today's city shopping trip, and replace it with garden city.


Garden city, is a relatively small shopping centre compared to carousel or karrinyup. But it was the closest at me and matt's place, so we decided to go there. I actually ended up picking 2 shirts, for just 20 dollars, but eventhough they are plain shirts, but i still like them quite a lot, and 20 dollars isnt all that much for 2 shirts either way.

so much mess just for frying bacon, and cooking pasta the other night...Had to wash like 10 billion dishes, + the left overs from the night before lol

Having my grocery shopping session ALONE, see how sad is my life right now? No one cares if i go do it or not, as long as i cook food every now and then, cousin and bro never complains lol. Must say tho, doing all these feel like i am indeed growing older...being independant.

 Moving onto the chilling session at my place. I had to clean everything afterwards, because my house was such a mess, the wok, the pok, and shove, were all so dirty, so i decided to clean them all up, after ken and matt left. We just sat there and talked a whole lot of stuffs, and matt was just saying how he wants to go clubbing, and wants me to go along. We have always been going to same places, together, so it's only ideal, we ask each other if we are going to certain places lol. But i told him, it's always better to wait till everyone's back, so we can have a big night out. Especially, with people like pam, and sarah not going, it always kills the fun. Speaking of those two, i havent seen them for so long, and i must say, i miss them so much haha. Uni's starting relatively soon, and i am looking forward to it. Simply because, i get to hang out with all my close friends. The moments that i hang out with my close friends, have always been so irreplaceable, and each time has it's own uniqueness. I remember, one time, sarah and pam were asking me to go to sarah's place to do some revision, but i think i was doing some shit at home, so i didnt end up going till alot later. Either way, so i went to sarah's place, without my books and shit. Those two were staring at me, and asking " sammy, where are ur books?". i said, " fuck, i didnt bring any, cause i thort u just wanted to chill and hang out?" LOL then pam shaked her head, and said " sam u idiot" LOL, she always fkn does that to me. Talks to me like a big sister and all hahaha, but she does feel like a big sister time to time. Ahhh those good times...

Looked for tomatoes, to try to cook my mum's tasty beef soup. Havent tried cooking, but i assume it's probably going to be a fail HAHA.

So anyway, was going to say, Ken has always been missing out good times like these, because he lives too far away. But nevertheless, uni's starting soon, we would all start hanging out once again. Pretty frightening to think about how i am going to be the one graduating soon, after this year ends. I can still remember how i went to my bro's graduation ceremony, but it was shit house, cause the actual graduation hall's windows got smashed by hails, and they had to go to some poor shit stadium to have the ceremony lol.


Mum's been bugging to find accounting/taxation jobs, and i kept telling her, now is not the time, but i would give it a try sooner or later, when this month ends. Have been playing quite many games recently, and kinda feel bad for wasting so much time on games sometimes, but i dont really have much to do, especially when pam's away, sarah's always been busy, matt's always working, and ken lives so far away lolol, oh and lastly, without my girl being here hahaha. She's been back for a quite a while, and i must admit, at first, i was kind of depressed i cant get to see her and shit like that, days pass by without her being with me, and eventually i kinda got used to not having her around for a while lol. Cause i started thinking, there's no point to be so depressed about, and its just a month that shes gone, i will see her sooner or later, and it seems to me that shes enjoying her life there, so why not be happy for her? hahaha


I cant believe, i wrote so much, and it seems like i gotta stop writing soon, cause this post is full of insignificant shits and craps HAHA. Well, anyway, i have to say, happy lunar birthday to my girl, she's been telling me, if we missed he actual bday, we can always celebrate her lunar birthday, but it seems like it's a fail, cause she isnt coming back anytime sooner LOL, but nevertheless, HAPPY LUNAR BIRTHDAY. there you go, don't say i dont wish u anything lol. ( and apparently due to not having alot of good pictures with me, i cant post ur picture up here, so don't be sad O_O)


Long ass post today guys, dunno if you actually made it to the end, but if you have, GOOD JOB, if you havent, KEEP GOING, hahahaha. Anyways, i should better get going guys, Have a great day, and see you guys soon! This is ideal signing off. <3


Loves

Not trying is failing

I just read this somewhere, and it enlightened me. I just thought maybe i would share it with you guys :)

"Many of us tend not to try because we believe the answer will be no – or that we will fail. We convince ourselves not trying is better than failing. In reality not trying is failing.
So take a chance – believe the impossible is possible – go for the gold – and enjoy your success."

Loves,
ideal

Hummingbird

Hows going guys. I am sorry if i didn't post anything entertaining for the past few days haha. Well, my life isn't as interesting as it seems to be, to most of the people. Since mum has left perth, i am busy to do alot of house works, such as washing my own clothes, and cooking etc.

These two days have been super unhealthy and not-like-sam-ish days. The reason behind all these, is because i have been eating chips and drinking soft drinks for the past two days. I finished a packet of chips, and a bottle of 2L soft drink. I know, to most of the people, It's so damm normal, but to me, i felt like i have committed sin LOL. ever since i started going to the gym, i cut down significantly on unhealthy food diet, and moving onto, always having vegies, fruits, with rice and meats. Junk foods were never in my list. So, with my mum leaving perth for quite a while, alot of stuffs started surfacing, and i need most of the time to figure out what to do for today's lunch/dinner, followed by tomorrow's and the day after, the days just go on and on. And believe me or not, i only know how to cook certain stuffs, i cant just cook whatever u want me to lol. Most of the time, i just spend my time thinking what to cook, for the meat dishes, and afterall, if you skip the vegies side, you can always replace the vegies with fruits, and i am big big fan of fruits. Ever since i started going to the gym, protein and vitamin index for fruits are pretty visible for me to identify, and i have learned to know, for all of you apple eaters out there, apples arent that great, eventho its a fruit LOL, because it doesnt contain high level of vitamin, and it provides relatively high sugar.

I am sure you all think i am a diet freak, but i dont care LOL. Without knowing all these, i would have long become a fat ass, without my abs now hahaha. So, just for you guy's information, the top fruits in my list are namely kiwis, and bananas. Grapes also do provide relatively high level of sugar, like apples, so i choose to skip it whenever i can haha. Another pretty decent fruit, is orange, but it needs so much time to me to cut it open ...holy f***. LOL.

I dunno how i have come to this kinda talk, and it seems like, this post is going towards my healthy diet, that i started 2 years ago, after i started working out. For all of you who dont really know me in person, or haven't really seen me, i can tell you, i used to be super thin, and i was one of those guys, who have a flat chest, stick arms, and bony back. I wanted to be different and healthy so i started to go to the gym, to enlighten myself, and to see for myself, how far can i go. So here i am today, after 2 years of gyming, i am finally demotivated, and i stopped going LOL, so much for those talks just then hahaha. Well, anyway, i am 100% sure, this break is just temporary, and i am gonna go back to the gym, in the near future, and i can see it happening pretty soon, as i go pass day by day, realizing my stomarch, and arms started to deshape LOL. Well, not that bad, but somehow i am still demotivated and aint as devoted, as i was back then. So i figure, there's no need for me to sign up again, with my half-arsed effort, instead i am going to wait till i am craving to tear my body apart, once again, then i will go haha.

Oh, btw, how can i forget this, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to all the people, but especially for my baby girl :)

Used to like this photo alot, cause u guys cant see my face LOL!

I tell you guys, how much shit i have got on for these 2 months. Her bday is on feb, valentines day is on feb, my bday is on march, and our special day is somewhere in feb as well LOL, but i dont really know, if we should base that special date on the past or not. (you guys probs dun know what the FUCK i am talking about, but well, she would know herself anyway)

Anyways, i have been wanting to cast commentaries, and i only posted my commentary that i casted 3 days before, last night, because my net was failing on me. Well, so i guess, maybe i should cast another one either today or tomorrow haha.

Oh before i sign off, you guys might be wondering why the hell do i have such a weird title. So, i think i might paste something for you guys to read. :)

In Native American culture, a hummingbird symbolizes timless joy and the Nectar of Life. It's a symbol for accomplishing that which seems impossible and will teach you how to find the miracle of joyful living from your own life circumstances.

This particular title is dedicated towards all the lovers today ;), especially, the ones who read my post hahaha.

Lastly, i would just like to mention that Leona Lewi's song called Lost then found is nice to listen to. For all you music fans out there, please do have a try at it.

Pretty weird post today, but hope you guys enjoy reading it. This is ideal signing off.

Much love

Music is simplistic

Music, music, music...all the way. Hasnt changed, still gotta love everything about music.
10. Coming home - Diddy feat. Skylar Grey
9. Words I never said - Lupe Fiasco feat. Skylar Grey
8. What if - Jason Derulo
7. All the lights up - Kanye West feat. Rihanna
6. I need a doctor - Eminem feat. Skylar Grey
5. Promise this- Cheryl Cole
4. Higher - Taio Cruz
3.What the hell - Arvil Lavigne
2. Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson
1. Nothing - The Script

Sorry, i aint providing any sort of information for you guys, cause i figure, i dont really have the mood to completely post, and write up a bunch of crap LOL. So there you go, i aint throwing away my promise tho, i am still posting personal weekly top 10 music chart, but just that, this one is a special one haha.

Love,
Ideal signing off

Bulletproof

Before i started posting about music, i know i havent posted in a week and a half, and i do feel guilty. I actually just went through someone's blog, and after reading those posts, i am really touched. Everyone kinda has an ideal dream, it is not a dream that u dream about when u go to sleep, but rather it is a future dream, that you wish it would happen. And somehow if it exists, everyone would strive for that particular dream, and hopefully, it will come true someday.

Sometimes, i think it is a bit hard, and everything that is in the future, would be hard to measure, because you never know what would happen, and more importantly, how those promises are meant to be broken at some point? or maybe how those promises would be kept to the end? You would never know what a person is thinking, when he/she actually said something. You wouldn't know if she/he means it, or if he/she would be keeping. I have come across so many things like those, and i figured there's no way that i can figure out, what a person actually thinks, even if they said it, as if they mean it. At the end of the day, only those speakers, know if they really mean it. Sometimes, i would like to make things alot more complicated for some reason, and i would make my brain explode by thinking so many complicated stuff.

Alot of people told me, especially my ex-girlfriends, that i am a very weird person, and somehow even if i am right next to them, saying all those stuffs to them, they still have no idea what is on my mind, which kinda brought me to today's topic: Mind games. I have no answer to it, and i know everyone does it during certain times. And it is very contradicting, because you know you shouldnt be doing it, but you still do it unconsciously.

Everyone exists in the world, to prove someone that they can do certain things, and nevertheless, i am no different. But in a way, the things that i do, arent there, because i want to prove the world, but rather, i want to prove to myself that i can do those stuffs, and succeed in the end. And somehow, it seems like the future is so blurry, with all the stuffs happening currently, but i know, if i try hard enough, i am going to make it in the end. I have told myself repeatedly, maybe i shouldn't post all these complicated stuffs here for other people to read, to accidentally think that i am a very emotional person. But, i know myself, i aint that kinda person.

Weird post, today. But i still did write it hahaha.
Love,
Ideal

Replenished, Angels and Demons

There's always an angel and a demon in human. And it is up to them, to choose which side to stand on, and what they would do, if they choose the side that they have chosen. It's so true, because when things turn bad, as human, we tend to always look things at a negative point of view, and end up being depressed or sad, but if you think about it, most the times, those negative times, are not the worst as it can get.

Sexy lights, with my talking and complaint sessions with matt

I am kinda guilty for not posting for quite a while, strictly speaking, i have stopped posting for 3 days, excluding the post i dedicated to my girl. The post which i wrote to my girl, wasnt really a post, because it only kinda showed how i felt about her, and nothing specific regarding my life. Due to so many things happening, especially with my best friend's issues with his girlfriend, i have been quite busy these few days, and had so much hard time trying to calm both of them down. Now, that it is done, i am finally having some free time haha. La'belle, if you are reading this, just think about wat i said to you last night, and have a think about it, there's no point to cling on something that isn't real anymore.

Been asking this picture for so long from my girl, but she keeps forgetting for nearly 1 week. I originally wanted to post this pic onto the post, dedicated to all the people that i love, but since i couldnt post it then, i might as well post it now. I looked pretty short there, but it's him who's ridiculously tall haha.

At winthrop primary school, and damm straight, my parking skill is unbeatable ;) lolol

I have this weird habit recently, and that no matter how late i sleep, i still wake up before 8am. It's so funny, eventhough i am always SUPER tired, after i wake up, but i still did in the end, and i have no idea why i do that. Life's been quite simple, with just chilling with my friend, and having sometime for myself, once in a while. If i aint wrong, my girl is going to come back on the 28th, which is still ages away from now. And like i said before, i don't really mind  how long she stays there, so long she does come back to me, things are going to be all good. Eventhough she has been going out quite frequently, it hasn't really bothered me, and i just thought, its only ideal for her to go out so frequently, eventhough she kinda said she didnt want to, because she doesn't really have the time to go out like those times in malaysia when she is in perth, especially with me and her studying, and stuff like that.

Primary school art classes, the light were still on even at 9pm and i wonder why haha, kinda reminds me of the times i was in primary school, where i was so innocent, and all i thought was how to draw nicely haha.

Last night, was a very meaningful night, and that it kinda taught me a lesson in way, eventhough i helped my best friend to sort out his shit. After talking for a long ass time, he left, and i spent sometime to tok to his girlfriend, giving some advices and all. With that over, because my girl wanted to go out with her mum to eat something, so i thought, since Matt's been asking me if i wanted to hang out for a bit still. So i was thinking, ok, why not right? So we went, to one of our original chill out spot back in high school, except this time, i am nearly 21 years old, and it was 9pm. Everything was different, the lightning, the environment, and composition of everything. It was quite odd, in a way, it felt nostalgic, and in a way, it felt really strange, as if that was a place that i have never been before. After playing for a bit, i told matt, i might need to get some meaningful pictures to update my blog, just so it kinda makes it less boring for people to read haha, but i went on along, onto an adventure, with nearly absolutely no lights, and the way i was leading, was towards, a spotlight they had on for some reason.

Finally, the "LIGHT" that i was searching for, but it seemed like, there wasn't any particular oasis for me, but i was so thirsty LOL

Sometimes, people tend to head towards the light, because it was the only light that they can see, and they focus too much on the little petty stuff, so they miss out big time on the whole picture or landscape. This causes us, humans to again, ditch the important and focus on the unimportant. Life's about learning things from experience, and it is because it hurts, we learn. If it doesn't hurt, we wouldn't learn. It's because we are scared of losing something/someone again just like those times in the past, we learned to be stronger, and try harder. It's because of all these, human evolve. If you dwell too much on the negative, you would never ever turn. Afterall, don't you guys think? Life's too short to be someone that is negative, and life's too short to be anything but happy. So why not, do yourself a favour, and let all the past be the past, and move on with the future?

Loves

Ideal signing off

Tied Together with a Smile

Dear baby,

How are you? LOL, shit i cant even pretend to write a proper love letter for you HAHA. Anyways, to be honest, there's nothing much for me to say, just how amazing u have been, and how exciting my life has been, with you. I cant think of anything fancy for me to say on this blog post, but i am sure, you would know how much u mean to me.

fat ass girlfriend LOL!

You probably wouldnt have the time to read this post untill tomorrow morning or so, cause i am assuming ur going to have big night out somewhere, with ur close friends and family. Nevertheless, this post is dedicated to you, eventho there isnt much, but at least i made a post about u. Before i started blogging, i kinda promised myself not to write too much about you, but ur turning 21 now, so i will let u go, and post this for you hahahaha. Well, i hope you like it, now u cant say, i didnt post a crap about you anymore. <3

i lobe de see 2 pig de aderine wongee. (NOTE: for other readers,have a guess on what i actually wrote, by leaving down the comments in the box HAHAHA, if you have time that is lol)

Night all,
Ideal signing off, Loves

Spiral Melodies

My parents are now gone back to malaysia, and all of a sudden, my house feels too quiet. Before they went away, we went to a bar and restaurant for lunch, and parents were telling me i have to take care of almost everything in the house, because they know i am kinda the only one who is capable of doing everything. Sometimes i wonder, how does it feel to live on my own, without doing the work for someone else and all. But i aint complaining, because i would miss out all the company that i am currently having.

Fancy bar and restaurant :)

 
My accounting managerial control exam is coming on wednesday, and i only have a day and a bit to study. But somehow i am quite confident that i am at least gonna get a 70 on this unit, since i have been doing decent for all the internal assessments and speeches. I would probably get some rest today, and go studying tomorrow morning if i am not lazy. But though, today was a weird one, because i ended up having a nap. I havent been getting alot of sleep recently, and probably because of that, i ended up sleeping from 6.30pm till 8.30pm. One of the things that i hate the most is that, when i try to sleep, i cant sleep because it is too hot. I freaking hate tat to the core, i dont mind if i freeze my balls off, or i am having insomnia or some shit, but not being able to sleep because its too hot is the shittiest.

Nice chill out spot, for a coffee or two, but too bad i dun like those. Nevertheless, nice area for people to rest and relax :)

I havent been casting alot of commentaries recently, cause i dont feel like talking to a computer, without having it to reply me back haha. And i dun really know, if there's alot of ppl are looking forward to it, although i have been getting some comments on the videos, and asking me to cast more. I have been pretty tired recently, and i dont really know the source of it. Maybe its just the fact that i have to do almost everything. I have started to wash my own dishes, and wash my own clothes, followed by being allocated to fill up fuel tanks for our 2 camry's, groceries shopping, and even cooking. Although the list is endless, but sometimes i feel like this is a way to perfect myself for doing all these things, so that in the future, i know exactly what to do. My mum has given some decent amount of cash before she left, telling me i have to always try to minimize my spending on food, and what not. My mum is always so caring towards me and my bro, and it is just really amazing to look through everything she has done for us, and the fact that, she had to live separately from my dad for nearly 8 years. I cant imagine living a life like that, just because i want my kids to study better in a better environment. So, for all of you out there, sometimes if your mum goes overboard on lecturing and what not, please just shut up, because she has done so much for us, and we have done so little to appreciate, moreover we always think they are annoying and whiny most of the time.

Havent had western food for a while, good to have a new taste once in a while

I have toked to my girl today, and went through alot of arguments with her, and she just did the usual. But i can see her improving in communicating with me, especially with the stuff that i dont understand, and that it requires some sort of explanation. I wouldnt say all much right now, but i just hope, we can maintain what we are capable of, and improve on little little things day by day. A relationship would not work, if it is just one person doing all the work. It has to always be two, doing and trying to solve unwanted problems to prevent it from happening in the future. That's all i really can say right now. She has been gone for around 9 days, and she might need another 21 days to stay there. So lets see how she can enjoy her days in Malaysia, haha.

When i am done with my exams on wednesday, i was thinking maybe i will have sarah, ken and matt over just for a few drinks, and chill out a little, since we havent been meeting much at all. But the only problem lies, how much ken or sarah can drink, in order to drive afterward. I seriously cannot wait till my actual uni semester 1 starts, there's gonna be so much happening, and alot of meeting up with friends and what not. Anyways, pretty boring post for today, summarising my thoughts and what i have done for 2 days. Laters, guys.

Signing off, and loves,
ideal

Like blood, Like honey

Hey guys, how have ur days been? i have been going out quite a lot today, and possibly tomorrow as well, and would probs go to the lib tomorrow night again just to get some stuff done before the exams. Perth's weather is acting so weird recently, and it is really cold currently, with 17 degree hahaha. Nevertheless, i do enjoy the cold weather better, simply because, its alot easier for u to put extra clothes on, instead of installing air-con into ur shirts, during summer lolol.

So, i actually just came back from Matt's place, and we spent around 4 hours chatting about all our personal stuffs, and i must say, i really do appreciate having him around, eventho i have been pretty repetitive recently. We spent so much time during high school last time, talking and hanging out 5/6 times a week, repeatedly, and ever since we went to different uni's, the frequentcy started to drop like crazy, but nevertheless, we still keep in touch and contact, and hes the only one from my high school that i am still hanging out with. We went through alot of chats today, about what are we gonna do in the future, and what not, it's just been really really irreplaceable night yet again.

Millie's slacking session, while i was scratching her lol

As we were chatting, Millie was sitting beside me, and i kept scratching her, because she likes it when people scratching her hahaha. She has been aging, and according to matt, shes already 9 years old. Throughout high school, i sometimes would come to matt's place, and used to be doing alot of assignments for groups purposes, and Millie would come and started hanging out with me, under the table, and all.

She is quite old already, and matt was telling me that, she jus got really lazy these few years, but i suppose that is only normal, because when ppl get older, at some point u wouldnt like to move all too much. She's the cutest dog i have seen, she might not look the cutest on the appearance, but i just love how she kinda behaves like a human, and i still remember, how i used to spray perfume onto the carpet, and because it smells nice, she would always started to roll around the floor, to get the smell on her HAHA, how cute is that.

Found this on matt's fridge, kinda reminds me of the stuff i used to make in art's class, and had it framed up by the teachers hahaha. Those memories are still crystal clear :)

I've been thinking alot recently. School's starting sooner than i have expected, and i have to say i am looking forward to it, because achievements in academic terms, has started to give me satisfaction recently. I have started to go summer school, all i knew was i had 2 days of classes a week, 4 hours each, and i learned heaps load, and by the time i realised, it has already come to an end. Tutor's been relatively nice and kind to us, in terms of giving me decent marks, and all, thus giving me the motivation to study hard and stuff. This is actually my 3rd year in uni, and it is also the last year, after this is all done, i will graduate, and find a job, and would start having a healthy work life. Hopefully, i would have the motivation back to join up the gym memberships, once again. There's a great year ahead, and i would have to grow thru mistakes i made in the past, and theres gonna be alot of shits for me to sort out this year, including PR's application, and stuff like that. Would try my best to start in Australia for the rest of my life, and there's no turning back to Malaysia, i certainly do not wish to go back.

Anyways, pretty normal and short post today.

This is ideal signing off. Loves.

Adventurous, yet self-discovery night.

Hey guys, it is still chinese new year, but like i said before, my family has kinda eased to celebrate it over the years, ever since we have moved from malaysia. Today was a very very interesting day, eventho shit didnt happen, but i will tell u why it was special and interesting. Just to go through what i did the whole day tho. I woke up this morning, and spent sometime preparing then headed my way to uni. Parents dont like me to abuse the fact that i can drive, and the fact that they gave me a car, they still want me to take the bus, but it was TOO FREAKING hot, so there was no way that i cud have taken the bus...

Anyways, so i headed to uni (half naked in the car, but wore the shirt when i was leaving the car, LOL, now u noe how hot it was?), and today's class was pretty short, most importantly, it was my last accounting managerial control tutorial/seminar. I definately did not regret going, and i felt proud of myself for staying till the end (yes! i made the impossible possible these days :) lolol) After the class, i came back, and did a commentary, but the net was failing, so i cudnt upload it. Probably will upload it tonite, for those waiting viewers from youtube :). As busy as i can get, nevertheless i would still make time for these commentaries to be casted for all you fans :). I just hit 20 subscriptions today, and i just wanted to say again, i love you guys. To most of the people, 20 might not mean much, but to me, like SERIOUS-FKING-LY, it means a whole lot, cause do u noe why? because i cant even count it with my fingers, thats how many ppl are supporting me, online hahaha. Ok enough bullshit, moving to the REAL stuff today.

I figured, exams are coming near, so i ended up heading to the abacus lab ONCE AGAIN, because i know for sure, if i stay at home, i wudnt even do shit, i dont play dota, i dont cast commentaries, i dont tok to ppl on msn, so the question is WHAT THE FUCK am i doing? i dun have an answer, i dun do anything, and the time passes, and it is SO weird. O__________O. Anyway, so after 2.5 hours of studying NON STOP ( i seriously mean non stop, because there was no distraction), i actually finished all the calculations revision, and headed home. Before i officially LEFT the actual campus, i juz thort, since i am alone, and i cant go to sarah/matt's place to talk/chill, i might as well, spend sometime for myself to think things over. One of the other reasons that i was heading to the library, was because of something happened today, and i dont really wanna tell anyone, because its just very unusual of me. So back to what i was saying, i actually, circled around uni, and just spent sometime taking some WEIRD pictures, of..car park..construction site...campus, and even the freaking tennis court or some shit. i have no idea why i did it, but ever since i started blogging, i have decided maybe, i should post some pictures up for you guys to see, so its not all about words, and my boring life hahaha.

Chemistry faulty at night juz looks so HAUNTED haha.

Using two computers at the same time, this is how much i abuse shits, when i have them all lolol :)

Business parking lot at night looks so different

Parking expansion construction that has been going for 1 million years LOL.

There were actually people down there playing god knows what, at 9.30pm O_O, must say the spotlight looks so sexy

Examination parking lots with different levels, although somehow it looks a lot like paper lanterns

So I circled around uni for a while, at around 20km/h, just trying to chill, just trying to appreciate what god has given me, what god has done to change me into a better person, and how i have changed from the past. I have been quitting to go to clubs, and parties and stuff like that for a while, and i must say, eventho sometimes it feels like i am an anti-social, and it feels like no1 gives a shit about me, but i do not care LOL. Its been a while, since all those shits have happened, and i am just really glad that i still have my good friends around me, supporting me all these while, and family as well. For me, nights like these are irreplaceable, sometimes people think, YOU HAVE TO go out with someone else, cause it's always more fun to do that, but that is not necessarily true, because when your alone, you think more than when your with someone, and besides, the stuff that u think, is a secret to yourself. But nevertheless, i watched an anime like 30 mins ago, and it's been such a long period, since i have seen the last anime. it gave me different insights and ideas, on how to live a life, and how to not let anyone unecessary to spoil your life.

Sometimes, eventho someone might say my life is full of shit, or it's boring ass. I will let them have it, cause at the end of the day, nothing really matters except me, and having my family and best friends around. :) So for all the readers out there, PLEASE if someone makes you feel like shit, please do not dwell on it, instead forget it, because at the end of the day, nothing matters except your happiness, and please do not let those idiots and nonsenses ruin your mood. :)

Much loves,
Ideal.

NaVi vs Virus

Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mDsg2PAtqo
Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95_miLsqK7Q
Part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfDxpGEVjKU

Hey guys this is deal, casting another replay yet again. Today's game's going to be between NaVi and Virus. Due to not having alot of spare time, i will just straight off the bat and proceed to the end game analysis

As you guys would probably have known, Sentinel picks are heavily in favour of early and mid game push. Artstyles has planned this carefully, and deployed it very strategically, which leads to NaVi early game victory, without having the scourge's invoker and spectre being farmed up AT ALL.

Spectre's being heavily outfarmed

Dendi's ulitising full use of early game advantage by uses of wraith bands

Artstyle's rushed Scepter and BoT along with Dendi and Oblivion

Oblivion out farmed every heroes in scourge

For more information about the end game analysis, please watch part 3 of the videos i have posted above, i apologize for not writing deep analysis this time round, because i have got uni tomorrow, and have to go to bed LOL. if i have time tho, i will write it up sooner or later, let me know if you guys wan me to :)

This is ideal signing off.

Dedicated to all my viewers, family, and close friends

Hey guys. It's actually quite late now, and the reason that i posted this was because i want to mention a couple of important stuff to my viewers, friends youtube subscribers, and family members. Just to start off, i have been having a pretty tough week, and there has been alot of ups and downs in life without alot of stuffs going on emotionally, mentally, and school work. I have to thank you guys for supporting me till the end, i have never ever thort i could be relying and needing support so badly from the past, but i was dead wrong. You have played important roles in shaping me into who i am today.

just for you guys who dont know, i am the one at the most right :)

I just had to talk with my parents, my brother, and my cousin. I told them some problems that i have encountered, and they surely did support me till the end. One other thing that i have to mention is that, i have to give a big shoutouts to Sarah, Matt, and my jie. I have been telling you guys alot, having to you guys to listen to my whinning and what not, but i just wan u guys to know how much i appreciate you guys. Today will be the day, i switch my spotlight over to you guys, for supporting me, and just been my mental and emotional comfort/support throughout the hard times.

Coolest mum and dad ever, and coolest sis and niece EVER

Today's actually the 2nd day of chinese year, and i must admit, these all seem to be fairy normal for me, just normal days passing by. I just simply do not have sufficient words to describe how much i appreciate u guys, and i am sorry to keep repeating myself. And all you, other viewers, please remember, i will never forget about you as well, because you been great throughout and trust me, if you need someone to listen to ur bitching, i will be the 1st :) One another thing, i have to mention is that, even if i lose the entire world, i am sure, most of you outside, are ALWAYS going to be there for me NO MATTER what, and u just have NO FUCKIN IDEA how much i love you guys. All the ups and downs that i have come across, which nearly brought me down to hell, all dont matter anymore when i am with you guys.

this is matt 2 years ago, i cropped myself out cause i looked like a retard in this picture LOL.

To all of you viewers, family and close friends, THANKS for being there for me always, THANKS for never letting me down, THANKS for supporting me no matter wat, THANKS for listening to my complaints and ridiculously long bitching session, THANKS for having me as well, AND LASTLY, THANKS for being my back-bone throughout my life. U guys have no idea, how deeply touched i am :)

Big loves, from ideal.
Signing off

Supression

Hidden meanings lie elsewhere,
Curtains fall, and underneath you realised how much your worth,
Words spoken of regrets,
Meaningless portrayal of feelings,
Is this just the delusion of the real imagery?

Maybe this time tomorrow,
the rain will cease to follow,
and the mist will fade into darkness.
Desperation and hatred comes haunting me,
Or do i deserve something better?

Dissapoinment seeks itself, and devour the solace of the sun,
Despair swallows the deep red moon,
All is all, none is left.

Life's all about me :)

Hihi, as some of you may know, based on chinese calender, today's the chinese new year's eve. However long i  havent been celebrating chinese new year, i still do not feel like celebrating it, and i dun know why. I still kinda remembered what happened the last time i was celebrating and it was plain tiring. Today's juz an usual day for my family, the only difference that we had, was that we sat down on the dinner table, and all were having the dinner at the same time. i have long forgotten traditions.

This post is purely dedicated to all the chinese people out there: There is a new year ahead, and this year's the beginning again. Treasure someone when you have them around, and dont ever look back to those mistakes and regrets that u have done. Life is all about moving on, overcoming those obstacles that we have come across.I have changed from the past, and all the shits that i have done, and regretting them, they are the past now. There's no point looking back and be depressed about :) This year's a great year ahead. Me and jie have talked ridiculously long last night about what problems we have come across, and why is life so confusing and saddening at times. And i was telling her, i came to a conclusion, that is: Nothing else matters except your own happiness. The world is centred around me, and i dont give a shit, as long as i am happy :)

Anyways pretty short post today, and HAPPY new year!

this is ideal signing off.

GGnet vs Virus

Hey guys, after waiting for so long, i finally have made my choice of which replay to cast. Today's cast will be none other than the match between GGnet, former NWO, going up against the rising clan, Virus, Ex- Blast. I have seen this replay before casting just to familiarize myself with certain stuffs and, after watching the whole replay, i have decided to cast this replay. Reason being is that, there is not many good replays available on gosugamers, and i have seen 3 replays so far, its either too boring or its between the teams that i am not interested in. But i have chosen this 1 for u guys because it is with decent climax and actions.

Introduction: Picks and Ban

Fairly unorthodox picks coming from both sides. It seems that Kuroky would not be playing hard carry for a while, and his role is going to be taken over by AZEN and Piecat. I have been quite impressed with Virus recently, because of their strategy and team play, and lets how how they are going to pull this off.

Mid game analysis: Kuroky went for BKB instead of the typical scepter build from other teamplays, whereas piecat has farmed up the usual radiance vanguard build at the 25 mins mark. Azen hasnt been doing all tat bad at all, and has picked up manta style, and an eaglehorn near the 30 mins mark. Over the scourge, Shadow fiend has picked up the usual BKB and has developed into the infamous yaphet's s and y build, followed by an eaglehorn, whereas potm has gone for a very special and untypical build, which consist of MKB and linken's sphere for survivability.

End game analysis:I feel that Virus hasnt been making alot of mistakes throughout the whole game. And it's juz because of the mistake near the end that really costed them the game. They havent really been too outfarmed by the sentinel. Over the sentinel sides, we can see two very farmed carries, Alchemist and Sniper.

I have to mention, its all because of piecat's performance which has lead to GGnet's victory. Alot of alchemists being played by different players has failed to farm up/outfarm the opponents, and because of that, he doesnt have the presence (as i have mentioned before, alchemist is a presence hero) for the enemies to focus him down. The theory behind alchemist's end game build is generally: BoT, Assault Cruiass, Heart of Tarasque, Shiva's, Pipe, and Radiance. As we can see all the above items make alchemist a tank and a presence hero, that either gives him the presence and benefits to his team mates, or makes him to have the extra HP, which cant be EASILY focused down. And also i would like to point out Azen's superior glass cannon play. As shown, he is not buying the silly vanguard build ( i have seen tournament players playing it) or a BKB, which are all not required, judging from having an alchemist tanking the damage, or even if shit happens, venge is in position to swap him outa the battle. And i somehow have to mention, i am not very impressed with Kuroky's play recently, with any of his heroes, but i guess every1 will have a bad day now and then.

Over at the scourge side, as i have mentioned repeatedly before, i actually do not know why they lost to GGnet, it seems to me, they had the advantages in the beginning but in the end, due to Piecat and Azen, they have lost it. Maybe the only recommendation that i can give the scourge  is that, they might want to pressure the alchemist and stopping him to farm a little, as we can see from the screenshots, scourge has failed to cease the alchemist from farming throughout the game, therefore, it costed them the game. Scourge has actually been fairly well, just up untill the end, where they juz get devoured by piecat's and azen's right click. All in all, an epic game :) i hope you guys enjoy my commentaries, and please leave feedbacks or any replays for me to cast in the future. This is ideal signing off

Music is my religion

Title's taken from one of my fav shirt :)

Hi guys, its been a week since i started this blog, and i have managed to at least post once or twice a day, juz for the updates for dota and music, and what not. So this post is going to be a post about the music that i have come across in this week. As i have mentioned before, i will post a weekly english songs ranking on this blog, this ranking HAS NOTHING to do with the actual billboards chart, it is simply juz from my personal experience and view. Before i start, i wud like to mention/introduce this band for you guys. As i have said repeatedly i not only listen to english songs, i sometimes listen to jap and chinese songs, or even korean. So the band i am going to introduce today, is the band that i have come liking for quite a while, roughly for 3/4 years.

They are called The Gazette. This band was formed sometime around 2002 or something, and i found them when i was 18, and started liking them since. They have recently released a new single called "Pledge" so, if you guys are wondering, why did i post something up last time, with the title "Pledge", it was because i love this song alot. This song is a ballad song, one of the few they have written and sang throughout their music career. They normally do rock genres, which explains why i like this song so much, because it is a ballad done by them. And if you guys are juz a lil bit interested, the names from right to left are, Aoi, Ruki, Reita, Kai, and lastly Uruha. I used to like uruha alot, because of his hair and stuff, but it seems to me, that he doesnt ever cut his hair short, and change his styles, unlike Ruki, who every1 likes, because of his ever changing styles.

However much i want to talk about this band, i will skip it for this time. Instead i will move on to the English music ranking for this week. I will not add alot of description, because i thort maybe if you guys are interested, u can either leave comments for me to introduce or give any additional  info, or u can juz google or wiki them :) So here goes:

10. Everything I'm not by the veronicas
This song is like 7 years old, and u might ask, why the hell am i listening to it now. I havent been a fan of the veronicas, but recently i heard  it on the radio, and i downloaded the actual album, and came liking this song alot.

9. Hurricane by 30 secs to mars
For those of you who dont know 30 seconds to mars, they werent very famous, untill recently, after releasing their new album, topping up charts with singles such as closer to the edge, and kings and queens.

8. The only exception by Paramore
I used to like this song alot, and i kinda forgot about it, but recently have started listening to it again, and i must say, it's in one of my favs in the list, because it reminds me of something beautiful.

7. Parachute by Cheryl Cole
As some of you may know, i am a big fan of Cheryl Cole, after her release of the album. it has songs such as fight for this love, and 3 words, which all topped charts last year. Parachute is one of the songs that no matter how many times i listen to it, i will not get sick of it. So i hope you guys try it out.

6. Not like in the movies by Katy Perry
The artist of the song doesnt need to me explain or tell u guys who she is. However, this song hasnt been on the chart, but i loved it alot as well, and like the others on the list, i started listening to it. You guys might wanna try it out, its pretty good, and very untypical of her to sing this kinda song.

5. Space Bound by Eminem
This is one of the few GUYS song that i like recently lol. As manly as i can get, i love girls songs way too much than the guys lol. I must admit, i am hell sexist when it comes to music, i dun normally love songs sang by guys/guys band. This song is one the of the songs i came across last week, and i started to like it the more i listen to it :), for those of you fans out there, theres no need for me to go thru who is eminem and what he has accomplished haha.

4. Phantomrider by Tokio Hotel
This band is from germany, and i liked them when i first heard their single called Monsoon together with my best friend, Matt. At first we thort the band was okay, but the more we listened to them, the more we came liking them. Phantomrider is actually a single in the latest album they have released last year or so, so please have a try on them :)

3. Stereo Love by Edward Maya
I havent heard of this guy before, and if u guys are wondering why i like this song, well i will tell u, its because its mostly sang by a chick LOL. so yes, i still havent abandoned my sexist behaviour towards guys music.

2.Big girls dont cry by Fergie from Black Eyed Peas
This song is heaps old, but u know what it reminds me of? MY STUPID GIRL FRIEND, everything about the song reminds me of her, LOL, the song's title is like shove in the face to her as well. Shes such a cry baby to no end HAHAH, she will probs bash me when she sees this post zzz. well back to the song, i actually quite like this song, eventho its hell old, ever since she released her personal album, she stopped her solo career, i have no idea why, but i do admit, her voice is sexy ;)

1. ________________________The Flood by Cheryl Cole__________________________
This song is actually quite new, and is from her latest album called Messy Little Raindrops. Her latest album hasnt got alot of songs on the top charts such as billboards or Australia top 40, but i still like the song anyway. This song was originally recommended by my girl, because she knows i like cheryl cole alot, so she told me about this song. Please support her :) oh SHES SO PRETTY AS WELL HAHA, i am so shallow lolol

Thats all for the music for the week. Hope you guys enjoyed it.

Loves,
ideal