Louder than words

h.....e.......yyy.....guys, I AM SORRY i havent blogged for so long, at least some of may have been waiting for me to blog. Well life has been really really busy for me and stressful recently, because as i mentioned before i started working and stuff, and with my assignments pilling up, theres just no time for me to blog. And moreover, theres nothing much really happening recently, by nothing much, i mean NOTHING BIG, happening. But who the fuck cares what happened and how it happened, lets just move on to the real TALK.

 I will start with today's stuff, and rewinding back to what actually happened from last week untill now. So some of you may have known, i get my cash paid, every wednesday, and i get TAX RAPED everytime i get paid, ...300 bucks for my weekly pay, and tax is around 80 ( eventho i get it back later, and get to claim it back later, i still think, 220 per week, IS NOT ALOT OF CASH FOR ME, especially, since i am a big spender nowadays). So anyways, i went to the city, and proceeded to get my burberry shirt. For some of you may have noticed, i recently have this weird shift of fashion, where i just buy everything branded, and burberry is one of the big brands tat i have wanted, but of course, with its stuffs, too overpriced, i refrain myself from spending all too much on its stuff. So today, we stopped by the burberry store around kings street in Perth city, and bought myself a t-shirt. This t shirt is actually a very late bday present for me, FROM MYSELF. And if u think i am being so self-centred, then ur wrong. Sometimes, i think people always recieve gifts from other ppl, and always NOT buying stuffs tat they like, FOR THEMSELVES,and that is silly, cause it is UR DAY, u should buy something with ur own money, and reward urself once in a while, and this shirt is kinda like a bday present for myself, eventho my bday happened 3 weeks ago.

 With me going into the store, i immediately spotted the ones that i wanted, and because there was a slight price increase from the past week, i got kinda pissed, but found out that, the price tags indicate the wrong figures. The actual price is 20-30 dollars lower hahah, and it made me happy again. Then my bitch got jealous, and wanted to try on some shirts, and nagged me to buy her some shirts when i get my pay next week, which i probably wont do it BUT i will tell u guys why later ( or maybe i will? i dunno hahaha)

 Proceeding to what happened the day before....Okay so, i am the kinda person who kinda just forgets everything in a short while. I actually went to school that day, for my business capstone unit, with my group members, and proceeded to order pizza's since, it was tuesday, and on tuesday, all pizza's come with half price, WHICH isnt so bad i reckon, cause 2 large pizzas are only 11.5 bucks. I aint too fussed about the fod recently, and i guess its sorta because i havent been gyming all too much recently.

 SO...the big thing is that, maybe i have mentioned this before ( not maybe, i am sure i have anyway), my girl is in love of making cookies recently. So from the past months, she baked some cakes, and cookies, and is moving onto something different in the near future. She can make chocolate mudcake, lemon cheesecakes, and some shortbread ( wtf, she called them tat, or i forgot the name?)/the so-called butter cookies, which almost taste identical to those ones that u buy in malaysia, which comes in a blue tin (but if u know what i am toking around, i swear ur a genius LOL)

 And of course, i have AT LEAST managed to take 1 picture near my work place. For all of you who dont personally know me in real life, this place is called FREMANTLE, in perth. One of the big and popular areas that perth has, which is mostly crowded with whites. But working there kinda motivates me, cause the managers and staffs are generally really really nice, and of course, the pay isnt tat bad at all, on top of the decently paid wages, i get longer hours compared to other work places, which isnt all tat bad AT ALL.

 After work, of course, needless for me to say, my bitch whines and nags about how she wans to stay over my place, and i brought her to maccas ( known as McDonalds, but i say maccas, cause its short form, i will only do this once, since u guys would know wat i mean later on anyway <3 :) ) Just the usual, fillet-o-fish with the meal. Eating them in the car, cause we r too cool for ppl to see, especially me with my hardcore work uniform, and fked up hair cause of the freaking cap LOL.

 NEVERTHELESS, we started studying recently in the library in curtin of course, i have managed to have taken some photos juz for the images. We changed spots that day, cause we thort, its boring to sit at the same place every single time. Library was relatively quiet during the weekends ( of course? DUH!) But i realised i cant do alot of readings recently, i started out really fast, then the speed jus goes downhill, which is sooooooooooooo depressing. After 2 hours of reading SHITS, i have abandoned my books, and surfed net with my girl, to find some shopping ideas. Just the usual, fantasizing the LV's and PRADA's hahha ( she always does tat, and gets depressed cause she has to wait a while to get them) Well, it isnt all too hard, especially with me working now, and let me get this straight. I aint spoiling her, if shes being unreasonable, i would ease to buy stuffs for her, but its just tat, i kinda get the habit of achieving something, and saving up for something, and it kinda makes me grow, but i would have to tell her, i cant do that every now and then, cause all those stuffs are all so overpriced.

Ok so, at the end, i have to mention the fail clubbing last saturday. Matt and i were saying, maybe we should go somewhere different for clubbing, but what i personally thort was that, there isnt any other places that are available to go, without being in the queue for 10-20 mins, but matt insisted we should go meet his friends. So we went...and the long ass queue kinda pissed me off, and moreover, the people there were all whites ( no offence, i like better when theres a mix of asians and whites or other races, Plain whites are a big NO NO for me, cause it kinda reminded me what happened back then) But anywayyyyyyyyy, the queue was long ass, then we encountered a fucking fight in front of the club. My girl and i jus went "-.-, k i aint going in anymore" LOL. So my girl, spent all her time dressing up, putting make ups, and we didnt even end up going into a club. But thats okay, theres always next time hahaha. We proceeded to go home of course, and just took some pictures after that.

Well it is kinda obvious, i have reduced my frequency of my blog post by alot, and i am really sorry, if some of you guys are really looking forward to the posts that i blog about. But at least i do make an effort to post some stuff of what happened :), so i hope u guys keep supporting me. Personally, i kinda like it better if i blog a little lesser, just so i keep my negative thorts to the minimum, and keep my postive to the maximum. If i keep blogging everyday, and even the days without me doing the BIG things would turn out to be negative, because of the little fights and arguments between my girl and myself, which we both know, its our own fault anyway. But like i said before, the lesser negative stuffs that i post, the better my blog is gonna be, cause at the end of the day, who the fuck wans to read some emo shit blog post everyday? HAHAH.

And i wanted to say alot of things judging from what have happened recently, and simply because due to me not having enuf time, i have failed to post alot of fresh daily inspirations of what i learned everyday. And believe me, everyday is a learning experience, u just wait and see :)

1st inspiration: I have realised alot of things from my work, and in these 2 weeks, it has taught me repeatedly of the things that we disregard. One of the things that i have learned, that really caught my attention was the extent of people being independent. In my Hungry Jack's, theres just so many different people with different backgrounds that i have encountered, and trust me, most of them inspire me. For example: there are 3 chicks from my workplace, that are on work visa, and  one of them came here, FOR TRAVELING, AND IS LIVING ON HER OWN, WITH HER OWN EXPENSES. can u imagine how hard would it be? She pays her own rent, work her way out, and travel around the world, and SHE IS MY AGE! 2 of the other chicks came from taiwan ( and not speaking fluent english, but still AMAZING english given that they have been here for only 3/4 weeks) working to get some money for their own, without relying on her parents. And most of them, take up more than one job, and currently, working over 30-40 hours a week at my age.


2nd inspiration: I have encountered another chick, who has to pay her own school fees. And of course, due to her being a white, the school fees arent tat exp at all, its only 3k, compared to my 12k per semester, but it is still a ridiculously large amount of cash, that she has to generate in 6 months for her school fees. She is now working full time, and taking a break from uni, to gather up cash. And alot of cases like these are visible in my workplace, where 17/18 year old kids, work their way out, to even buy a car that is worth 6/7 grand, BY themselves. It takes alot of determination and effort to save up so much cash, given that they only get paid around 10-11 dollars per hour.

Just wanted to add her in my blog post, since she's been giving me the company all these while :) <3 xoxo

3rd inspiration: This is the inspiration that i have learned from myself. My life is like a puzzle right now, i know there is a way for me to work my life out, and it takes alot of determination and effort to achieve what i wan to achieve. Theres a qualification test for me to challenge, a permanent residency(PR) stage that i have overcome, and above all, i have to find an accounting job for me to get my PR . My life has been so so so so busy, and i have so little time to re-consider and reflect everything i do. I have been struggling for the past month, and i have yet to tell anyone. BUT FUCK EXCUSES, struggles make people learn. Never expect things to happen, STRUGGLE AND MAKE THEM HAPPEN, that is when u learn to appreciate the things that u actually achieve. I would like to take this opportunity to thank EVERYONE, and thats U AND U AND U AND U AND EVERYONE. My readers, my family, my close friends, and my girl friend. Thats it for today's blog, and thanks for reading, as always :) LONG ASSSSSS blog post, today, but i hope u enjoyed it :)

Love, ideal

Moonlight shadows, Shades of the Solaces

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHAT UP GUYS! havent been blogging for so long, and btw for this post, i would be using my normal msn language and abbreviation for longer words, cause i seriously cbf typing properly as of now. Life has been a roller coaster, and alot has happened without me blogging about it. But having said it, life has been a blast of course, in some ways, including good and bad. I actually dun really know where i should go about commenting and telling stories about my life, but i should start posting what happened today and start from there...Soooooooooooooooooooo,

Cookies, gf made for me lol

Cookies, gf made for me lol no.2

Bitch trying her hardest to make cookies HAHAHA

gf's helping mum to sort out bean sprouts O_O, and asked me for help, tat douche HAHAHA

wtf has been happening? k basically today, i had uni on, and i went there ( pretty amazing i know i know..) then i came back and bought pizza cause my cousin was bugging me to buy it for him, so i did. After tat i went out to play basketball. was freaking fun, and awesome, and again with matt hahaha. i dun really have the guts to ask just about any1 to join me for my basketball session, cause i prefer to tok it out with just matt.

But for the past few weeks, i have just been shopping my ass off, and since i am getting my 1st pay roll tomorrow, it would only be wise to owe my girl friend 160 bucks to start off + my booked gold necklace, getting ready for me to have it picked up on thursday...HOLY FUCK SO EXP, but it was 50% off, so i bought it. So there we go, my 1st pay is gone.

the new shirt i bought from french connection, i love the simplicity of the shirt, hoping that the weather is gonna be colder for the next few weeks, hot weathers arent gonna allow me to wear normal tees, cause i sweat like a fucking pig

City food court, in the city mall

all these for 20 bucks, what a bargain, these filled us up completely.

But last week, i went out with ken and matt to korean bbq, juz for the lolz, cause i have been going there quite a lot and i really like it there to be honest. foods nice, and the people there arent tat bad as well, the price is decent.

100 tonnes of food for us to devour during our starving period hahaha, nice food :)

Anyways i would take this opportunity to introduce 3 songs that i love during the past weeks: Price tag by jessie j, Friday to sunday by justice crew, and lastly hungover by kesha. U guys should go check it out, its relatively nice and they all sound pretty good.

took a pic when i was bored at work, waiting for my manager to discuss stuff with me, as u can see, the HJ's floor are pretty dirty, or maybe u cant see shit from this pic? HAHA

k gf took this photo, i just thort i would post it up CAUSE U KNOW WAT, my triceps in these pics are so ridiculously big and it is almost funny HAHA, trust me, seriously my arms arent tat big, these pics are such lies HAHA, too much exageration, and the angle projection makes it look huge lol But i am pretty vain, i am in love with my own body sometimes HAHA, and come to think of it, i needa join up gym ASAP! fuck sakes, i am getting thinner T_T

My life is getting busier and busier, and the peak period is coming soon, with my assignments piling up, working, saving up money, shopping. Life has never been so busy compared now to the past. But it is again very exciting and fascinating. It is almost like living at 2 times speed :)

However, before signing off, i would just like to mention a couple of things, especially extracted from the song, Price tag by jessie J. she sang the song with alot of emotions, with sacarsm tone, and i really like it. The song is about life with money. Basically wat its saying is that, money cant buy us alot of things, and life aint just about the price tag, u gotta pay somethings with love. we dun need ur money, and it is not about the money. We should forget about the price tag, and focus more on love. And i think it is sooo fucking true, because when most of the people have money, they start to sway away from who they really are, and they start being really materialistic, and start to climb up to the "status" ladder, with all the struggles. But tats so fking stupid, cause life isnt about money, no1 needs ur money, it is not about the money, wanna make the world dance, and forget the fucking price tag guys? hahaha LOGGING OFF, IDEAL.

Much love <33333333333

Heroine, and Snow White Queen

Matt's new car, which has become my beloved car as well LOL

Library session

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time


A song by Jordin Sparks, which totally hit me when i was working today. In alot of cases, we would always rush things, and it's because we rush, we end up losing everything. Or even just little little things, we tend to always rush to learn something, but in fact, the only real way to do it, is ONE STEP AT A TIME. So, music, once again has enlightened me today. I hope you guys should enjoy this song  as well :)


Love,
Ideal

Heavy Rotation, Part 2

It seems close, and grab-able, but somehow, i still cant grab it. It seems clear, but somehow i am still confused. It seems it's finally 1 step closer, but yet still so far away. I guess this is what life is like for me, for the past few days. It has been so uber busy recently, and i barely got time to blog, even with me quitting dota for a while, i still cant find a decent time to blog. With my work being in place, work applications being due fairly soon, countless assignments dueing and not knowing anything at all, my life is at its peak at the moment. But nevermind all that, since i have got some time off now, i might as well blog something more interesting. So yesterday was a big day for me, since most of the stuff happened and inspirations were from yesterday. To start off, i was planning to go to my class yesterday, and i walked all the way to the bus stop, and figured i didnt bring my finance text book, i went all the way back home to bring. There's a person wanting to buy the text book, i bought it 2nd hand off my friend for 50 bucks and used it for 1 semester, then finally sold it off to this guy, for 50 bucks again LOL, what a cunt LOLOL. yeh, gotta abuse the opportunity if i have one. :)

Back to my story, yesterday started off with horrible shit, which is the fact i skipped my class, cause i went all the way back home to get the text book, missing the bus. But i figured, "okay lets not waste a whole day on this, and instead, have some fun around", so me and my girl took on an adventure. LOL, adventure sounds pretty lame, but who cares~. Firstly, since we have some time before meeting the guy to pass him the text book, we went to the beloved thai restaurant WHICH WAS EFFING CLOSED? WTF #$%^&*() LOL!, so then i had to drive all the way to summerville cafe near winthrop, which was basically the start of life in perth (previously). I was living relatively close near the neighbourhood, and because it was near to my college as well, me and my mates would often chill there, after school. It kinda brings all my old memories back together once again, but this time, i am going there when i am 21, and it feels a little different cause i havent been there for quite a while, not mentioning i was with my girl tat day as well. She hasnt had a chance to come till today, cause we broke off last time. But nevertheless, we ate there for a while, and went to utopia since we had sometime off.

One of the perfume store near southlands, with insane discounts

Utopia with my favourite "breasts buns" LOL, i call them that, but really..name of it is mini custard buns hahaha

After passing the book to the person, i made my leave, and my girl were freaking annoying the fuck outa me, shouting in the car, telling me that she wants to go to the city so freaking bad. She kept screaming and screaming like a kid, and i would threaten her, " if u dun shut up, we dun fucking go" and she went silence LOL. We were toking like kids that day hahaha. But then again, i wanted to check out my guess jeans that day, i had a little bit of urge to go, and check out, and the urge eventually became a desire, since my gf was literally pulling me to go. But before those happened, we went to utopia to get bubble tea, and i realised i hate adding jellies into my bubble tea, i like it better with the jellies, so would probs stop adding it in the future, + its cheaper tat way as well. SO WE HEADED OFF to the city...

PRADA and its super-uber-glowing surroundings

Fat gf wanting to try on some clothes O____O

We walked around a little, just going through those same old stores...PRADA and GUESS, and some other stores...juz to check things out since we had sometime.

Today was...IMMENSELY hot, i dun get why last week could be cold, and this week can be sizzling hot, i was literally sweating like a bitch, walking to the uni, waiting for the bus today. I went to my missed tut today, and i felt so fking horrible not knowing literally anything at all, and some prick in my group had to piss me off. ARGH. Even with my work in place right now, i cant really imagine myself to get back to the life i was living. Life has been alot busier, and heavier to lift. And during times like these, i feel like, i am really living. Like i tire myself out, i make the most outa everyday, even if its just plain working or uni days, i certainly dont feel like i am wasting my time, especially how i kept playing dota everyday.

LOL at my feet colour different, one of the few times i wear slippers, cause it was so bloody hot...

Dont ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. Achieve and strive something that seems impossible, shoot for the stars, and if u miss, u might end up on the moon. After all, we all have a purpose on the earth. You might be surprised what you truly are capable of, one day.

Loves,
Ideal

Luminous flares and the faded background

Hey guys, so how are you all. This is a perfect time for me to blog about what happened today. After having such a long ass day, i am finally home. I went to uni today, and bailed my auditing lecture, and came home earlier, and spent some cash on my books. So today's post is gonna be purely based on what happened today :) Although it might just be some same old stuff happened before, but it is still truly an irreplaceable night again

So after uni today, i came home, knowing that i might head off to the city, for some shopping, since my girl just got her money off her parents, and hasnt been buying any stuff for the past few weeks. So we headed off to the city, before matt, just cause matt wanted to go to the gym and all, and i planned to do the shopping with my girl, before having the actual dinner at a different korean bbq restaurant. The first thing that i felt when we arrived at the city is that, it was relatively crowded, and i never would have thought that this friday late night shopping was my 1st in my 8th year in Perth. We went to couple of shops in the city, and of course, city for me, means more GUESS shoppings LOL. i have been in love with their products recently and i dunno why. I guess, i really like their clothing design, and their decent price as well. GUESS is a pretty well known brand throughout the world today, and of course, if u can spend an extra 10/20 dollars on a shirt with guaranteed quality, then why not?

Sexy city with the lightings

After shopping for a bit, i bought a sweater from GUESS yet again. This time, the sweater comes in grey, which is my ideal favourite colour. Most of the colours that i like are generally original colours, such as white, grey, black, dark blue and stuff. I stopped buying bright coloured shirts a while ago. Having this weird shift of fashion, and it feels alot more different than before.

So matt finally arrived at the city, and we met up at the korean bbq restaurant. I saw sarah on my way there, and since she was with her family, i didnt really end up talking to her all too much, cause i just thought it wasnt necessary. The korean bbq restaurant was the 1 where we had our meal, with adeline's cousins and bro were here. The food there is pretty tasty, and the price of them are relatively decent. We had korean bbq last week, and the food there was nice, but the price wasnt too low. So i just thought we might try some others, and see if they r good or bad.

Tastiest meat u can get :)

Fat gf's with some beef in lettuce ( what do u call it in korean? O_O is there a name?)

 After eating and stuff, we went back to bull creek train station, and we drove past myaree utopia to just have a bit of chill out. We just sat down for a little, and had our little chat, just like any other time. Eventhough its just between me matt and my girl, but it was really enjoyable, and especially, we took some memorable pictures with my girl's polaroid. The night ended, without me realising, and it has been so memorable for me. This night can be added into one of my most memorable night. Since it wasnt just chilling elsewhere, but we went off to the city, for shopping and dinner in the 1st place, then came back to myaree utopia to have a little chit chat session.

At Utopia. It was too cold, so i wore the sweater that i bought from GUESS LOLOL! Nice picture tho :)

 I am really happy to have all my good friends around, especially when its times like these as well. Be it ups and downs, they are there to support me and hold me, whenever i fall. Well, everyone falls, but the thing is everyone has to get up at some point, so, the real question lies HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE. So, like one of the lyrics that keri hilson wrote, " when it knocks u down, just get back up when it knocks u down", and one of the quote from a movie: " Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up". So people out there, who read this post, when you take a fall in life, don't give up, just get up. Afterall, you are the one who can truly save yourself from drowning. :)

Much love,
Ideal

Shivering Phantasmagoria's

Hey ya guys. So sorry, havent been blogging for a while. Lifes pretty busy at the moment, and like i said before, i only blog when i feel like it, and when something actually happened/having the sudden urge to have the inspiration to post something. So, how's going? My life has been quite okay at the moment, just with the usual uni stuff going on, and studying a little bit. Good thing is that i have actually found myself a job, from a fast food in fremantle. Well, maybe someone would come asking me, why the hell am i working at a fast food company, when i am 3rd year uni student, i should be finding graduates positions and stuff right? Answer is simple, finding real jobs is a lot harder than part time jobs like these ones, and more importantly, recently, due to my spending, and shopping my bank account went downhill. So, i was thinking to myself, why the fuck cant i work, when i have some free time? And having more money would be a good thing, of course.

So my birthday just went pass without me realising, and funny thing is that my gf makes a big fuss over it, wanting to bake me a cake and stuff. On the actual bday, her cake was kinda a fail, but it still tasted quite nice. I told her it doesnt matter if its a fail or sucess, but as long as it still tastes decent right? Well, of course at some point you would fail, but tat just basically mean u learn from ur mistakes, and dont repeat it in the future. Tomorrow would probs have some stuff on, especially with going to the city and all. Me, and my girl, together with matt, and possibly ken, would head off to the city, and to do some shopping or just to walk around a lil bit. I figured, it is not all tat bad jus to hang out with friends, it doesnt really matter if your actually buying stuff or not of course.

Lemon cheese cake, this one's the good 1 that she baked today haha.

 Man, i have to make a point tho. I am just super glad to have matt as my friend. Whoever knows me, would know, me and matt have been friends for quite a while, and its just the fact that we always help each other out. It's so cool to have him around all these while, just to remind me of things, and to make me thing, you know, even if i lose something, i shudnt be all too sad, since i still have him around me and stuff.

Canning college car park, while walking to my car, which is around 1 million miles away :) LOL!

2nd week of uni has been pretty intense, and it feels like i am almost sunk to the bottom of the sea, not knowing anything, for all my 4 units. Especially for my unit, called business capstone. I am so fucked for that unit, and probs would be needing someone else's help next week. Well anyway, havent got a lot to say, but just to feel like blogging since i havent been blogging for a while.

There are alot of things for me to do this year, and everything is telling me that i cant slack off anymore. Which is really frightening of course. Anxiety, curiousity and immense responsibility are about to be my biggest challenges in life, and i hope i make through it. I just read other people's blogs today, i must say, eventho some of them are short, but they still reflect people's feelings, and that is what i am after. I would much rather to read something original, than some advertised fked up blogs, which are full of adverts and shit LOL, kinda turns me off.

Sometimes, people tend to lose their humanity when they attain something that they want. When they achieved something, greed and lust take them over, and they start to lose what they were in the past. That's why my mum has always been telling me, you have to realise what you have, and learn to appreciate :)

Like one of the quote that i have seen on the web: You gotta walk by faith, not by sight. Cause seeing doesnt do jack shit sometimes.

Loves,
Ideal

21, 2202, 0703, 1002, Mended

ARGH. Today has been a long ass day for me. Sunday has always been the busiest. Church is always in the morning, then if we have lunch elsewhere, and ended up having badminton session, would be so tiring. But today was rather different. So first, i went to church, and we went for lunch, which is sort of normal. But tomorrow ( i say tomorrow, cause i am still considering today as 6th of march) would be my birthday. HOW AWESOME, u know whats even more awesome? i dont have plans on hahahaha. well, not very unusual for me, since this weekend has been so long and busy for me. Friday night, had a dinner with friends, Saturday was the only day i had some free time off, but nevertheless, i forgot what i did, but moving on to Sunday.

Today, after church, we went to ToTo restaurant in victoria park. Defs one of my favourite restaurant, cause of its decent food and rather cheap prices, compared to the others. Then came home, chilled a little bit, and went out to chill with matt, and my girl, which is always fun.

utopia session with matt and my girl

Victoria park

<3

Bro's gf's present for me, and my girl's present :) thanks heaps!

Toto's weird paintings hahaha

I don't really wanna ramble on too much with what happened today, cause that would just be plain boring. But, eventhough tomorrow (7th of march) would be my birthday, it kinda feels like, it would just be another day. But, it would be a friendly reminder for me. Cause this year would be the year i graduate from uni, having the biggest challenges in life, shift of way of life, and nevertheless, and growing up year, yet again. My wish is very simple: May those of my loved ones, stay by my side, until the time says goodbye. :)

Relatively short post for today, but i have an excuse, i get to do whatever i want on my bday :) Thanks for reading, and have a great day!

Love,
Ideal

Screams of Ravens

Compare and contrasts. Dark and Light. Positive and Negative. Appreciation and Ignorances. That's what life is really about. So what's up guys. Haven't had the proper time and mood to be posting alot of stuffs. Things are looking pretty okay recently, especially with my mates finally catching up with me and had the normal uni stuff going on. Plan for tomorrow, would probably be going to play basketball, but let's see what matt has got under his sleeve. So we basically had some plans last night and this morning, and this is what this post is gonna be about.

I actually spent a long ass time trying to plan this shit out, for 1/2 days. I basically just invited the usual friends, pam, sarah, ken, matt and my girl to come along to this dinner thing. And of course, i didnt wanna make it huge, cause i just thort, there wasnt a need to make it huge and all. Speaking of this, my birthday is coming relatively soon, 7TH OF MATCH baby hahaha, but currently, i don't have anything on for that day, probs just gonna be a normal night afterall, cause i would be quite lazy and stuff. So, back to my point, last night, i actually went to Seoul Korean BBQ restaurant near the city, with my mates, it looked as if they have changed the floor design and stuff, cause it's been so long since i last been there. I remember i would always go there during my high school days, with matt sometimes, to catch up and eat a little bit there. Nevertheless, i should probably change a korean bbq place for next time, and i have got another place in mind.

raw chicken and pork, which i have stolen for some parts LOL

freaking tastiest meat ever

the favourite: beef

 Matt and i are both big big fans of beef bbq, and especially when it comes to korean bbq. So we ordered shit loads, last night, i guess it was like 4 trays? and the other 3 trays consisted of a mix between pork and chicken, which didn't taste as good as the beef, of course hahaha. Anyway, had a great great night with all these champs around me, just rocking the whole world, but my girl wasn't talking much at all... i dun get exactly why, she just cant tok with other people when shes out, especially with my friends. At first, i got pissed at her, cause she looked so unhappy, and i just thort, i organised the whole thing, why not be brighter a little bit, but after 1/2 mins, i just thort, yeh well, lets not ruin the mood for tonight, and move on to the food. JUST LET IT ALL OUT on the food dude, just do it hahahah.

Had a hair cut, WHICH WAS AGES AGO, but hope you guys dun mind my ugly look haha.

hardcore height difference yet again O_O

The sexy pool table

So, after korean bbq, which was the ORIGINAL GAME PLAN. We had nothing in our socks. Then i remembered, pam mentioning how she wanted to go timezone and shit. On the way there, sarah and matt started suggesting we should probably do a pool competition. Pam ken sarah and matt ended up playing that shit, when me and my girl were just sitting down chilling a little bit. It was all pretty fun, except it's rather crowded in there, and as you probs would know, i aint a fan of crowded place. After a bit of playing and what not, we all ended up taking photos, suggested by my girl. Which i thort was absolutely genius, because we havent had a chance to actually go out in a group, with ALL THESE good friends of mine, particularly because sarah's always been a lazy bum, whereas pam went back to singapore when holiday kicks in. Matt on the other hand always have stuff on, where as ken just lives so fking far away. So we finally had this opportunity to take shots of us being together that night, which were SO GOLD.

me and my girl, with her overpriced coloured hair, and it cant be as good as black, can it? guys, lets be honest, orange/ash/whatever fuck colours dun suit her better than black. :P

Old pic, at matt's place, me playing with millie.

The night just ended when we finished taking photos, because sarah and pam were all working the next day, so i just thought maybe i shouldnt keep them all out too late that night, and if i do, it would be pretty selfish of me. So, on the way home, i kinda thought, i wanted to buy some stuff from the city. Cause city is the place where there's always gonna be discounts and shit on, so, i was thinking to pick a day to go out and buy stuff. I had this weird shift of fashion recently, where i dont feel like wearing clothes with lots of patterns UNLESS it's branded. I recently bought 2 shirts from cotton on, which were totaled up to 20 bucks. Which is insanely cheap, of course. They were all plain shirts, dark blue, and black. I like those types of shirts. But, at home i started to think repeatedly that, i don't currently have a lot of clothes that i can actually wear to go out. And i started counting and all, guess it was around 20-30 shirts, that i can wear casually to go out, which is pretty bad. Cause, half of them were just the ones that i bought ages ago, and i kinda got bored of them.

So i made a trip to the city, with my girl, and my cousin. At first, i got stuck thinking what i should buy, going pass my favourite stores, french connection+guess shops. After running around and walking around knowing there werent any discount, i was so devastated. Then i brought my girl to go pass the luxury side of the city, which were the TOP CLASSES stores such as Gucci, Armani, Burberry, LV, and Prada, which we didn't buy anything from them, of course. ( Cause FKN expensive? LOL, without budget, u would never end up getting one of them) So anywho, i was planning to head home, but finally made my last stop at guess ONCE AGAIN. Realised, there were 25% off, for first signed up purchases, and ended up buying 2 shirts, 1 sweater. And 2 shoes from ZU. PRETTY FREAKING satisfying shopping right there, except i spent nearly 300 bucks...which equals to nearly 1k Malaysian ringgit ( mentioned by my douche bag girl friend, trying to make me feel bad! zzz)

Took this in front of guess's change room. check out the mirror, i will let u figure out which side is the real one hahaha

Anyways, just felt like having a private/unweekly music chart from me. These songs are the ones that i have loved for a long time, and is still loving it currently.
1. Halo
2. Broken hearted girl
3. Parachute
4. Love the way you lie part 2
5. Who's that chick

Relatively uninspirational post from me, for today, but nevertheless, i hope you guys had fun reading it :) Early night from me, and much love.

Signing off,
ideal

4 Spades A's

It has been fading away more and more. Maybe summer has been long gone? So what's up guys, i am posting this relatively late at night. It actually went pass 12am, so strictly speaking i have made a 1 day gap between my posting periods. But nevertheless, just gotta try that much harder to fullfill my personal vow to post as much as i can. I don't need sad memories for me to keep, I only need the happy ones. I have been relying on this way of life since ages ago, that's why i have been playing it safe :) Sad that, there's alot of people out there, still keeping the old sad memories, but don't personally think how people can put up with that.

Actually went to uni today, eventhough it was a big big fail. Good part was that i met up with sarah, caught up with her, and talked alot with her. Spent around 4/5 hours with her today, just hanging out and chilling, talking how life, and how things are, currently. On the surface it seemed to be okay, but sometimes, u just gotta prepare for the worst. Life has been quite a shift for me, from the past, where i only hang out and chill with friends, and not the trashy nights anymore. Glad that, i would see pam relatively soon as well, which is TOMORROW. Those two girls are one of the coolest female friends i have come across, definitely, treating them how they deserve to be treated. :)

Sometimes, eventhough things brush off for a while, for certain people, they come back. And sometimes, it's even worth mentioning their names once in a while, and it is sick. So gross that it turns me off every now and then. Fables have been long gone in my dictionary, and in my life, i do not need to care all these fucked up stories, from any people that i don't care, if you don't deserve me. Ignorances are always unwelcomed, and afterall, who else is there to care all these stuffs, when your left alone in the end :). All in all, none is left. Surface does not tell everything that has been happening.

Playing the cards well, is what this life is about. And i know, i have been playing them well.

Loves,
Ideal

Life would be an error without music

Sorry for not posting weekly music chart. For the past few weeks, i have come across alot of good songs, but it took sometime for me to review them all, and then re-editting, and finalising once again.
10. Untouchable - Taylor Swift
A song from taylor in her second album, fearless. Have been loving this song for a while, and stopping listening to it for a while. Got back to listening to it recently, and just thought you guys should give it a try. I don't particularly like her latest album, Speak Now.
9. King of Anything - Sara Bereilles
This song have been on the chart for a while. I think it went off sometime ago, but nevertheless, this song explained alot of things to me. This song emphasizes on the little little decisions that has to be made in a relationship, and how it should be equal on some terms. Well have a listen to it, and see if you like it :)
8. Not alone - Linkin Park
One of my favourite song from their latest album, 1000 suns. Have been a LP fan for a while, and just thought you guys should give it a go.
7. All that I'm living for - Evanescene
This song is pretty old,but nevertheless i still love the way how Amy lee sings in this song. Her voice is very very strong, compared to other singers such as britney's, taylor's and stuff. Do check them out when you have time, one of their song called Lithium got really famous, and topped nearly all the worldwide charts during that era, so please have a go at them.
6. Beautiful - Akon
Like most of the others, this song is relatively old. But i first heard it from my friend's recommendations. The MV kinda hit me as well, basically featuring the " not so hot" models in the videos, but thats the whole point of the song. Because they are only decent, it makes the MV more impactful. Like most relationships, where they don't have super hot bf/gf but they still think they are beautiful in their own ways. :)
5. The Kill - 30 seconds to mars
Relatively old song coming from the band, but loved it since it came out, DEFINITELY,  a must try.
4. From yesterday - 30 seconds to mars
Same goes for this song :)
3. Just cant get enough - Black eyed peas
Ever since the release of the latest album, the beginning, there's only one song that i love, which is just cant get enough. Some others topped charts, but been mass broadcasted since, so i got sick of most of them.

2. Lost then found - Leona Lewis
Needless for me to say this song, been in love with this song for so long, and it still enlightens me. Leona lewis has always been one of the top artist in my opinion. With the combination of one republic, this song is just amazing, but i have no idea why, it hasnt topped any chart. FREAKING GAY!

1. Love the way you lie, Pt.2 - Rihanna

The title says it all, Love the way you lie part 1, topped nearly every chart, last year, and the song is actually from Eminem's album. Part 2 comes outa rihanna's latest album: Loud. Very different atmosphere/mood coming from this song, especially with just rihanna's vocals throughout the song, and with eminem only showing up in the end. The lyrics, is so touching and saddening as well. Have a go or i kill you :) LOL

The best damn thing

BOO. haha, yes i am with such hyped mood right now to post. All the reason for you guys to read out some hell random and pointless stuffs. School has started and i havent turned up to any of the days. Because on monday, i actually was going to wake up on time, and having the alarm set and all, but, the alarm didnt go off that morning, which in turn made me skip all the classes that were on that day. So if your asking me if i felt guilty or not, i might answer you no, cause this is sam that we are talking about haha.

So that day ended without me realising, so right now it's Tuesday, which didn't happen alot of stuffs. Didn't really wanna have along ass post for today, just thought i would drop by to say something :). I actually washed my car today, when i was pretty angry with someone today. Then i thought, maybe i should wash my car for a change, cause my car got so dirty as well over the holiday.

In this photo, it represents the 2 things tat i love alot, my car, and my house hahaha

Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well.

Loves,
ideal