Turn away from light

Bite-sized pieces. That's how much hate that has been shattered around the world, and has been grown in every one of us. I have recently come across some arguments and some news from my family. And let me ask you guys viewers and readers out there, would you kill someone? Okay, so i know, definitely all of you would tell me " of course not, that is so shallow". Okay, let me rephrase my question a little bit, would you kill that someone who has killed someone close to you? So everyone's started thinking now. Likewise, that happens to me, except i only thought for 1 second, and told myself, i don't care who killed, who's behind and everything, i would kill them all. Call me shallow or unrealistic or whatever you want, and that's just how i am.
Pain breeds vengeance, which eventually turns it into a chain of hatred.

So, like i said before, i have stopped the frequency of my posts, relatively, of course due to not much has been happening and stuff, but i didnt feel the need to blog, just about "whenever i feel like it", i only blog because i wanted to say something about what happened, and of course that goes to, WHENEVER i feel like it as well. So, for some of you guys would probably know, my gf's been back from Malaysia, on Sunday. And her skin has been infected by some sort of bacteria, that caused her to have little red dots at random spots throughout her whole body. Of course, as a boy friend, i would feel sorry for her, but there's nothing much i can do, except applying medications and stuff for her.

gf's arms with medications O_O

There has been a couple of photos that i took and have been wanting to post it up ever since i have taken them, but somehow, just haven't really got the mood to actually post it. Black Tea's a reminder for me for all those days, when i studied super hard for exams, and all i eat during night time, when i study were chocolate blocks, and black tea with insane amount of brown sugar. I have always been a fan of high sugar leveled black tea, with a mixture of full cream milk. One of my original favourite from the past, and home made of course :). So like i have said before, gf's been back, so life got a little busier, and tat just means more stuff to blog about. I have heavily stopped playing dota for the past 2 days, because i didn't have a chance to, and gf's been bugging to accompany her instead. But nevertheless, we still ended up making some chocolate mud cake, for pre-dinner purposes.

Lipton's black tea packages before making a tea

Gf's new pencil case ordered from eBay

Before going back to malaysia, my gf actually bought me a wallet for my presents for christmas/bday/anniversay or what not. Have to say, that wallet was kinda like my aim for this year, i was planning to save up to buy that wallet, and i have decided that's all i really wanted for this year or any other year. I have no intention to go all out to buy the branded bags, cause that would just be a waste of money. So moving on to the real talk, for all you guys who don't know about this, i have already lost nearly 5 kg's ever since my gf has been gone, and during that period, my mum was gone as well, due to that, and having some pressures with me all the time, and not eating all too well, i haven't been gaining weights, and in fact has lost so much. That's all i hear from my gf these 2 days, " cant believe u became so thin, cant believe u became so thin". zzzz

3 freaking overpriced dollars/pillows/whatever-fuck-u-wanna-call-them LOL, that my gf bought in malaysia

Anyways, figured this post would be relatively interesting and longer post compared to most, of course. Sometimes i thought it has been fading away, but it hasn't. Guess everyone's short sighted, quoted from NANA TV, you dont realise alot of things when you have them, but when u lost them, u realised that u haven't been treasuring them at all in the past. So treasure what you have, with all you have got, afterall, u only got this one chance to prove yourself this, so why not give it ur hardest?

Loves,
Ideal

Song in a mirror Pt. 2

This is a bet. This is a gamble, and life would always be a gamble. There are always certain risks in life, for us to grab but sometimes, we don't want to risk, so therefore, we miss out on a lot of things. It's been a whle since i last blogged, and honestly speaking, i don't feel guilty at all. I have been pretty lazy recently, and haven't been doing all that much except for editting and reworking on my resume and cover letters for future work opportunities. For those of you, who know me personally, i am sure you guys all know i am graduating this year. There's just alot of stuffs for me to sort out this year. Must say, i am half excited, and half scared. World has always been frightening and always with surprises, be it good and bad.

I actually went out with sarah on friday. Haven't seen her for all holiday, so juz thort maybe we should catch up and all. She has changed a bit, with her hair fully dyed brown and stuff. LOL, and of course she looks better this way. Me, on the other hand, have freaking short hair compared to last time she last seen me. Asked some people for opinions on my hairstyles, most adults say i look alot more mature and better with shorter hair. Friends on the other hand, don't mind all too much, and just say, i look good either with short or long hair, which kinda makes me hard to decide which kinda hairstyle to go for. To be honest, the reason i dun like my current hair style all too much is that, its hard to "groom" up before i go out LOL. when i am with my longer hair, all i had to do was blow dry, straighten, then wax/spray. But on the other hand, when i dun go out, having longer hair just annoys the hell out of me. So i am still deciding whether to go for longer hair or stay with short.

So back to my original topic saying sarah and i went out. It wasnt too bad at all, eventhough we didn't do much. All we did was, went for lunch, then went to shop at garden city, cause apparently she needed some earphones. Man, this reminds me of how me and ken went to the city when we were 1st year students. We would always go to the city, head off to shops like targets or myers, and just make fun of everything that's there. Even went into toy shop, and recall how we used to be little kids, and loved these pointless toys to bits.

Speaking of that, I should probably organise a get together with all my good friends when uni starts. And hopefully it would be a blast. First off, we would ALWAYS need to have a meal BEFORE doing something, then we would actually go do something meaningful, which i havent got it figured out. For all my readers and viewers out there, if you guys can think of something interesting to do, please let me know. All the best for now, would be posting relatively soon i suppose. Much love

Ideal.

Ocean Way Sessions

I believe everything will go according to my will, if i am positive. That's why its always best to be positive. Sorry havent been blogging for around 2/3 days, and i just thort, maybe sometimes shorter posts are needed to be there to fill my blog with large varieties of posts, every now and then. There's a couple of things i would like to share with you all, and it doesnt really explain what i have been doing for the past few days.

Today's i came across a saying from one of my most visited web, saying "nevermind tomorrow, today is the day". This saying, originated back when i was little, and my mum always used to tell me how i shudnt leave everything to the last, and rush things last minute. And eventho i am nearly 21 years old, only 2 weeks away, i still feel no matter how grown up i become, in my mum's eyes, i am still a little baby. I say this and mean it in a good way, cause for me, i am a child, who always have my mum beside me all the time. Eventhough, my mum's been coming here quite frequently, i still feel as if i am seeing her everyday. Everyday my mum calls me, and asking me how am i and stuff like tat, and sometimes it makes me wonder how long can her love extend. I am really glad to have a mum like her.

Been talking to sarah quite a lot these few days, and probably would end up going out with her this friday. Havent seen her in a long ass time, but figured, we should see each other before uni starts, and i dunno how pam's side is doing as well. This holiday would soon come to an end, and i have no idea how time passes so quick. My mum's coming back today, and that means i can say bye bye to all these cooking and cleaning obligations ever since she went back to malaysia. But eventho she means alot to me, sometimes, she can be a hassle, especially when my girl is over, and sometimes, i cant be too close to her haha, cause it wud be all too awkward if not.

I recently changed my blog title to "The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning." Because it enlightened me. I have planned to change my title every now and then to inspire people so, people can keep visiting my blog, not because just to let them know how i live my life, but also give inspirations to people hopefully. So this time, i am pretty sure how u guys interpreted this particular title, but for me, it kinda reminds me of my life. Last time, when i had alot of shits on, i used to always think, " ok thats it, that's the end of me" but when i came across this quote, it always hit me really hard. What happened today may seem like the end, but can be a beginning for something yet to happen. This quote extends itself to far far beyond just the stuff between me and the others. It kinda teaches me, how life can be cruel at times, but it isn't gonna stay like that forever, so just wait and see, The world is round, what destroys us, can well be what rebuilds us :) So let us rejoice, and witness the beauty of this world.


Loves,
ideal

Resentment and Winter sleep

So hey guys, sorry for not being consistently to blog everyday, but i still do keep my promises to at least post once every 2 days. There hasnt been alot that actually happened, besides me playing games and stuffs like that. I have actually casted two commentaries in 3 days. What an achievement, so for all you fans out there, i am glad that u guys havent given up on me haha. Moving on to other stuffs, I dunno what have i done to actually, make me think of the anime show, called NANA. That anime was hell intense, and i finished all the episodes in less than 2 days. It consists of 50 something episodes, but nevertheless i finished it. I still remember vividly, how that anime show, impacted me, and i think it's one of the reason that i got 2 more piercings done on my left ear, in one go, the next day or so hahaha. Well, if you guys don't know the show, please do have a try at it. All the information can be read by visiting these websites:
Animenfo.com
Animenewsnetwork.com

For wallpapers, just go to animepaper.net

My mum's gonna come back on next week's tuesday, so hopefully, there wont be alot of stuffs for me to sort out anymore, i am pretty sick of over-organising stuffs for my side, and just seriously cannot be screwed doing anything more, except for myself. My cousin's been helping me and what not, so i aint fussed all too much. Today, when he came back from school, he was asking me to go IGA, down the road, to pick up some shopping, for tonight's burgers meal. Just a couple of crumbed chicken meat, some cheese and milk, with some buns.

It's been a while, since i actually went to IGA, because mum kept asking me to go to Woolworths to do grocery shopping, because items and stuffs from Woolworths,  are alot cheaper than IGA, but it's 4/5 mins further from IGA. I was too lazy to go all the way out to Woolworths, so ended just going to IGA for a while. Matt's having some stuffs planned for tomorrow night, and i have asked sarah to go, but she was saying she doesnt wanna go because she wudnt know most of the people there, which i dont blame her. Probably just gonna be 5/6 people having a dinner, and going home, simple night is always more treasurable than a trashy night. Kinda talked to matt, about what's going on with me just then, indeed felt better than talking a little while haha. Appreciate all of you guys alot when it comes to these stuffs.

One last thing that actually made me so proud is that, i have started having fruits feasts tonight yet again. I have stopped a while ago, cause i was plain lazy, but because i have bought these the other day, if i dont eat them sooner or later, they wud be expired and all, so i figured, why not eat it now? I actually cut banana's, kiwi's, oranges and grapes, and put them onto a plate, i like to make things a little fancier, so i can eat happily haha. And yes, i hate grapes, because they are always too sweet, and high in sugar, but i didn't have a choice.

Normal post today guys, but hope you guys enjoyed it. Signing off.

Much love,
Ideal

Lamp posts, with raindrops

Hey ya all. It's 11.54pm right now, and i figure, that maybe after posting this, i might go to sleep. I have just finished casting commentaries for today, so hopefully i would have them up by tomorrow. Actually, there isnt a whole lot for me to say, for these 2 days. The reason i didnt post anything last night, was because i never did alot of stuff to post about, and moreover, was not really in the mood. Well, anyway, moving onto the real talk.


Posting once a day or once every 2 days, have been seen as an obligation, but somehow, it is not a very harsh and strict obligation nevertheless, because it actually feels pretty good after you write something down, about what you have done for the past 2 days or so. The big thing about today was that, i actually met ken. We havent seen each other for such a long time, and moreover, he was asking to meet up. My original plan was to actually go to the city, and walk around a bit, cause generally city is the place where there are discounts and sales on. So i just thought, maybe i can pick up some decent stuff for relatively low prices.No matter how cheap shopping is, it defeats the purpose, if you cant go. And that's exactly what happened today. It was burning hot today, and was literally 37 degree. Me, matt and ken, all thought, might as well bail on today's city shopping trip, and replace it with garden city.


Garden city, is a relatively small shopping centre compared to carousel or karrinyup. But it was the closest at me and matt's place, so we decided to go there. I actually ended up picking 2 shirts, for just 20 dollars, but eventhough they are plain shirts, but i still like them quite a lot, and 20 dollars isnt all that much for 2 shirts either way.

so much mess just for frying bacon, and cooking pasta the other night...Had to wash like 10 billion dishes, + the left overs from the night before lol

Having my grocery shopping session ALONE, see how sad is my life right now? No one cares if i go do it or not, as long as i cook food every now and then, cousin and bro never complains lol. Must say tho, doing all these feel like i am indeed growing older...being independant.

 Moving onto the chilling session at my place. I had to clean everything afterwards, because my house was such a mess, the wok, the pok, and shove, were all so dirty, so i decided to clean them all up, after ken and matt left. We just sat there and talked a whole lot of stuffs, and matt was just saying how he wants to go clubbing, and wants me to go along. We have always been going to same places, together, so it's only ideal, we ask each other if we are going to certain places lol. But i told him, it's always better to wait till everyone's back, so we can have a big night out. Especially, with people like pam, and sarah not going, it always kills the fun. Speaking of those two, i havent seen them for so long, and i must say, i miss them so much haha. Uni's starting relatively soon, and i am looking forward to it. Simply because, i get to hang out with all my close friends. The moments that i hang out with my close friends, have always been so irreplaceable, and each time has it's own uniqueness. I remember, one time, sarah and pam were asking me to go to sarah's place to do some revision, but i think i was doing some shit at home, so i didnt end up going till alot later. Either way, so i went to sarah's place, without my books and shit. Those two were staring at me, and asking " sammy, where are ur books?". i said, " fuck, i didnt bring any, cause i thort u just wanted to chill and hang out?" LOL then pam shaked her head, and said " sam u idiot" LOL, she always fkn does that to me. Talks to me like a big sister and all hahaha, but she does feel like a big sister time to time. Ahhh those good times...

Looked for tomatoes, to try to cook my mum's tasty beef soup. Havent tried cooking, but i assume it's probably going to be a fail HAHA.

So anyway, was going to say, Ken has always been missing out good times like these, because he lives too far away. But nevertheless, uni's starting soon, we would all start hanging out once again. Pretty frightening to think about how i am going to be the one graduating soon, after this year ends. I can still remember how i went to my bro's graduation ceremony, but it was shit house, cause the actual graduation hall's windows got smashed by hails, and they had to go to some poor shit stadium to have the ceremony lol.


Mum's been bugging to find accounting/taxation jobs, and i kept telling her, now is not the time, but i would give it a try sooner or later, when this month ends. Have been playing quite many games recently, and kinda feel bad for wasting so much time on games sometimes, but i dont really have much to do, especially when pam's away, sarah's always been busy, matt's always working, and ken lives so far away lolol, oh and lastly, without my girl being here hahaha. She's been back for a quite a while, and i must admit, at first, i was kind of depressed i cant get to see her and shit like that, days pass by without her being with me, and eventually i kinda got used to not having her around for a while lol. Cause i started thinking, there's no point to be so depressed about, and its just a month that shes gone, i will see her sooner or later, and it seems to me that shes enjoying her life there, so why not be happy for her? hahaha


I cant believe, i wrote so much, and it seems like i gotta stop writing soon, cause this post is full of insignificant shits and craps HAHA. Well, anyway, i have to say, happy lunar birthday to my girl, she's been telling me, if we missed he actual bday, we can always celebrate her lunar birthday, but it seems like it's a fail, cause she isnt coming back anytime sooner LOL, but nevertheless, HAPPY LUNAR BIRTHDAY. there you go, don't say i dont wish u anything lol. ( and apparently due to not having alot of good pictures with me, i cant post ur picture up here, so don't be sad O_O)


Long ass post today guys, dunno if you actually made it to the end, but if you have, GOOD JOB, if you havent, KEEP GOING, hahahaha. Anyways, i should better get going guys, Have a great day, and see you guys soon! This is ideal signing off. <3


Loves

Not trying is failing

I just read this somewhere, and it enlightened me. I just thought maybe i would share it with you guys :)

"Many of us tend not to try because we believe the answer will be no – or that we will fail. We convince ourselves not trying is better than failing. In reality not trying is failing.
So take a chance – believe the impossible is possible – go for the gold – and enjoy your success."

Loves,
ideal

Hummingbird

Hows going guys. I am sorry if i didn't post anything entertaining for the past few days haha. Well, my life isn't as interesting as it seems to be, to most of the people. Since mum has left perth, i am busy to do alot of house works, such as washing my own clothes, and cooking etc.

These two days have been super unhealthy and not-like-sam-ish days. The reason behind all these, is because i have been eating chips and drinking soft drinks for the past two days. I finished a packet of chips, and a bottle of 2L soft drink. I know, to most of the people, It's so damm normal, but to me, i felt like i have committed sin LOL. ever since i started going to the gym, i cut down significantly on unhealthy food diet, and moving onto, always having vegies, fruits, with rice and meats. Junk foods were never in my list. So, with my mum leaving perth for quite a while, alot of stuffs started surfacing, and i need most of the time to figure out what to do for today's lunch/dinner, followed by tomorrow's and the day after, the days just go on and on. And believe me or not, i only know how to cook certain stuffs, i cant just cook whatever u want me to lol. Most of the time, i just spend my time thinking what to cook, for the meat dishes, and afterall, if you skip the vegies side, you can always replace the vegies with fruits, and i am big big fan of fruits. Ever since i started going to the gym, protein and vitamin index for fruits are pretty visible for me to identify, and i have learned to know, for all of you apple eaters out there, apples arent that great, eventho its a fruit LOL, because it doesnt contain high level of vitamin, and it provides relatively high sugar.

I am sure you all think i am a diet freak, but i dont care LOL. Without knowing all these, i would have long become a fat ass, without my abs now hahaha. So, just for you guy's information, the top fruits in my list are namely kiwis, and bananas. Grapes also do provide relatively high level of sugar, like apples, so i choose to skip it whenever i can haha. Another pretty decent fruit, is orange, but it needs so much time to me to cut it open ...holy f***. LOL.

I dunno how i have come to this kinda talk, and it seems like, this post is going towards my healthy diet, that i started 2 years ago, after i started working out. For all of you who dont really know me in person, or haven't really seen me, i can tell you, i used to be super thin, and i was one of those guys, who have a flat chest, stick arms, and bony back. I wanted to be different and healthy so i started to go to the gym, to enlighten myself, and to see for myself, how far can i go. So here i am today, after 2 years of gyming, i am finally demotivated, and i stopped going LOL, so much for those talks just then hahaha. Well, anyway, i am 100% sure, this break is just temporary, and i am gonna go back to the gym, in the near future, and i can see it happening pretty soon, as i go pass day by day, realizing my stomarch, and arms started to deshape LOL. Well, not that bad, but somehow i am still demotivated and aint as devoted, as i was back then. So i figure, there's no need for me to sign up again, with my half-arsed effort, instead i am going to wait till i am craving to tear my body apart, once again, then i will go haha.

Oh, btw, how can i forget this, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to all the people, but especially for my baby girl :)

Used to like this photo alot, cause u guys cant see my face LOL!

I tell you guys, how much shit i have got on for these 2 months. Her bday is on feb, valentines day is on feb, my bday is on march, and our special day is somewhere in feb as well LOL, but i dont really know, if we should base that special date on the past or not. (you guys probs dun know what the FUCK i am talking about, but well, she would know herself anyway)

Anyways, i have been wanting to cast commentaries, and i only posted my commentary that i casted 3 days before, last night, because my net was failing on me. Well, so i guess, maybe i should cast another one either today or tomorrow haha.

Oh before i sign off, you guys might be wondering why the hell do i have such a weird title. So, i think i might paste something for you guys to read. :)

In Native American culture, a hummingbird symbolizes timless joy and the Nectar of Life. It's a symbol for accomplishing that which seems impossible and will teach you how to find the miracle of joyful living from your own life circumstances.

This particular title is dedicated towards all the lovers today ;), especially, the ones who read my post hahaha.

Lastly, i would just like to mention that Leona Lewi's song called Lost then found is nice to listen to. For all you music fans out there, please do have a try at it.

Pretty weird post today, but hope you guys enjoy reading it. This is ideal signing off.

Much love