Watching the lights go down

Hey ya guys, how are u all. I hope u all are good, unlike me, suffering everyday LOL. Okay, so anyway, i posted alot last time, and juz kinda stopped for a while. Well, iam sure u know the reason why, and if u dun, then heres the reason, i have been super busy recently. With just everything + tiring stuff going on. Besides having to wake up at 5am every weekdays, i had to sort out alot of stuff, such as my PR and work applications stuff. So life right now, just has been really really tiring. Above all, despite of the double time pay, i have recieved last week, i have yet, again got nothing left in my socks. 110 goes to my gf cause i still owe her tat much, 110 goes to my mum cause i owe her tat much, 40 bucks goes to church donation, 50 bucks for the fuel, 50 bucks to matt cause i still owe him. My bank balance is still pretty bad, and also because of having so much debts, i finally came to realise the feelings of owing ppl. I should stop making my shopping list go up, while i still dun have the money.

I figured this out recently that, its better if i spend my own money. My mum told me, it doesnt matter how much u earn per week, the only thing tat matters is how much u get left over for a week. Tat is true, judging from the debts from this week, which was 110+110+50, all together i owe around 270 all up. Tat just means next week, i dun owe anybody. But then, i dun get to have tat fantasy, cause in fact i still owe my mum 100, because i borrowed 100, from her this week to pay off matt + bank account cause my phone credit got expired. So like i said before, i should probs start managing my money properly from now on. Having said that, i still get abnormally taxed during this period, and i dunno why. I should probs ring up taxation office and ask for more info sooner or later.

Winthrop dining table :)

 Either way, life is about learning. So its because i made these kinda mistakes, i make sure i dun keep making them. So from now on, i shud probs either save up or buy something when i actually get the money. Besides those, i dun really know wat i should reflect on. My last shopping was ages, and i only bought 2 levi's jeans from myer. U guys might probs wonder, why the fuck, am i spending tat much, how can i spend 300 per week. well u know wat? i dunno myself? LOL Tats why i personally juz think its better if i get high taxed, cause tat just means i get it back in the future, so its kinda like a savings account kinda thing, but its invisible lolol. So either way, enough of the fucking money and shopping shit. So anyway, to reward myself, i actually went to winthrop village to have ramen again, this wednesday. And moreover to meet up with matt. We havent met with each other for around a week, and it felt so long. But i had to kinda use the route, so i went pass his house, and we went to winthrop. Spent around 2 hours or 3 there, juz chatting, eating and drinking some shakes.

 Recently, after having to work so much at Hungry Jack's, i have witnessed so many pancakes. LOL so there we go, i actually went and bought msyelf some mini pancakes, with some butter and maple syrup on top. Which tasted like heaven, if u had the right microwave heating duration, and having the better spread evenly. Very tasty nice little breakfast that every1 can make, and it doesnt take tat long to make, above all. So all of u out there, wondering wat to eat for breakfast, heres some nice suggestions:

1. Pancakes
Just grab 2/3 pancakes, and put them onto the plate, over it with another plate, and heat it for 1 min. Make sure u have enough butter spread over the pancakes, and some syrup on top. While having tat ready, u can go and boil water for ur tea/milk/milo or anything hot.

2. Corn Flakes with milk
This breakfast has been really popular for me last time when i was joining the gym, and depending on the type of cornflakes tat u buy, u might end up being more healthy. Corn flakes, with dry fruits are always recommendable, comparing to those " tasty honey and sugary corn flakes", u should generally avoid those, cause they have large amount of sugar in them :)

3. 2 Steamed eggs with a hot tea/coffee/milk
This has been quite easy for me as well, however, i dun really feel filled after eating those, at tat instant, i needa wait a while for my stomarch to digest the food, and to feel the energy. Above all, after u have taken the eggs, it means u should avoid eating more eggs throughout the day, cause tat just means ur gonna be taking alot of excess yolks, unless u just eat the egg whites (which is alot better). However, this only takes 1/2 mins to make, so i recommend it for every1

4. Oatsmeal
I am the and most consistent with this one, simply because its a hot breakfast+i am pretty sure, they have the most little sugar in it, compared to the most. Cereals are always in my top list, and other than having it hot, its always good for me to have it during the morning, especially if its winter, to warm myself up.

Recently, i have discovered that i am heavily relying on hot drinks early in the morning, especially when i am working early. I guess its because i got no energy+its freezing every morning. So one or two hot drinks would always wake me up relatively quick, and give me a quick boost of energy.

All the above listed items, are all my favourite breakfasts, cause they all dun take too long to make. However some of them have some drawbacks, which is...being FATTY. Well its easy to identify, pancakes are relatively bad, cause of the flour being involved, sugar in both the pancakes, and syrup. Butter is consisted of oil, so we all know wat tat means, depending on what kinda butter u use, u might end up being unhealthy.

So, some of u may know, i recently have been going to the gym, after a long while resting. I recently got inspired by some videos, on youtube, and started joining again. Having said that, i havent officially joined the gym, cause its way too expensive for me to join straight up. And after having my bro to lecture me, i figured maybe i shud juz join it next week or so. i dun really wanna go thru all those long ass lecture that he gave me, but its not very ethical for me to juz keep going in for free LOL. Moving on..

5am at freo

 This is how it looks like in Fremantle when its 5am. The sky is always still dark, and i can see hardly any glimpse of sunlight at 5am. I have grown to witness the rise of sun every morning LOL. in the past, i have never ever dreamed that this could be happening, all my life, cause waking up early is never ever my type.

So either way, relatively vain post today, just about how to prepare breakfast, how my savings have gone downhill, and how my life is currently.

Well....thats all for today guys! Heres another song thats pretty good : Judas by Lady Gaga. go and try it out haha. That song is very symbolic. I hope u like it :) Night guys hahaa

Love, and signing off
Ideal

Fading light

Hey ya guys, since everyone's out today, my house has turned into a haunted silent house. my mum normally just hides in my room, and my girl friend is currently sleeping in my bed room. I am typing this post in the living room, cause tats juz the only place tat i am comfortable to type these things. Now that my bro's gone to bunbury for vacation, Jowy's off to his friend's place to play dota, i am left alone at home, which i dun mind. Every now and then, i prefer to have a little bit of silence juz to chill and cool myself down. Well, i realised i havent been doing alot of music charts recently, and yes, i aint gonna do it tonight either. Simply because, there hasnt been alot of songs that seem so appealing to me, other than the old ones. But however tho, i would  like to mention a couple of good songs for the music fans out there.

1st and 2nd song are called California King Bed, and Fading, respectively, both also by one of my favourite artist RIHANNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Shes so inteligent and HOT  LOLOL. shes so good at singing as well. Shes one of those legends, thats been around for a while, and still manages to top charts like NO OTHER!

SO well, these 2 songs are available in her latest album, called Loud. u can download it at isohunt.com, using bittorent software, which most of you would know, if u been downloading movies and shits using that. These two songs havent even topped charts (or never will? but i hope they will, cause they r FUCKING good) hahahah, but i dun give a shit if they are gonna top charts or not, i am juz really glad, i found the songs. I am the type of person tat would get pissed if i dun get that particular nice song from the radio station, especially since i REALLY REALLY like it. it would piss me off to no end hahaha.

3rd and 4th song are called Everything I'm Not, and When it all falls apart, both by the veronicas. These two songs are SOOOOOO old, but i found it..last year, and still have been listening to it. Their meanings are quite good, and i really like how they sing it, especially in the song, everything i am not, they sang "like ur so perfect, and no1 measures up, ye ur by urself, ur ALL MESSED up! " I recently came across a quote saying " when u judge someone, u dun define them, u define urself" Believe me, tat is so true. When u wanna judge,  u gotta have a valid reason or a positive point of view, and make sure u dun jus judge, cause she/he is better than u, and ur jealous ( of course, u dun think they r better than u, and u judge them, but believe me, most of the times, u judge them, because they have something that u dun, and ur being envious of them, unconsciously, therefore hating them/being jealous of them) So, however we wanna judge a person, we dun define them, we define OURSELVES. We define how we think, what kinda person we r, and above all, wat kinda behaviours and status we portray to the society. So all ppl out there who judge, ( it may look like i sound as if i am so perfect, but i noe i am not, i juz simply know this well enuf, and learn not to judge as much, as i used to judge alot of ppl in the past) please refrain from using all those bad and swear words when discussing about the ppl that  u hate, cause it will only make u look worse than them.

GAHHHHHHHHHHH, and 1 more thing, i ...need...to...save...up...for...my SHOPPING LIST! u know how frustrating it is? LOL, its like, the thing is right in front of me, i juz need sometime to grab it. URGH! so annoying lolol. Well like i said, the thing is only valuable and treasurable when u get it after u have tried ur best or at least put some effort in. I am grateful that, i am working, and i have seen quite alot  of stuff out there, to make me learn and grow, because afterall, everyday is a learning experience right guys? My mum  has always been saying this to me : if u wan this thing so bad, prove to me u wan it, go and struggle, and get it for urself. Do tat, u will feel better. Right now, i think about how i laughed at those words, it comes right back at me.

Anyway, i figured its time for me to get my ass to my bed already, since i have got church tomorrow...so c ya guys. :) good night

Love,
Ideal

The Frozen Walls

How's going guys. I was thinking to post another song up tonight, but i will probs do it when i finish posting the proper stuff haha. Well the song tat i will be posting up is called Parachute by Cheryl Cole. So just keep reading to know more about this song...But before i go into tat, lets just have me telling u guys wat happened these few days. So finally 1st day of double pay is over, i earned around 130 bucks today, with just working for 4 3 hours cause of the public holiday double pay being in place. YES! tat just means more money for me, ever since i started working, i have become such a fan of ....clothes and shopping goods. So money means MORE of them. So yes, i am still on my way to getting my collection. And hopefully i will have my collection ready sometime, in june?

Utopia, cousin and gf's all-time-favourite bubble tea store zz

City Mall, taken it sometime last week :)

weird ass street, while waiting for gf to finish her lame shopping. Just standing outside with my cousin lol

Movie night with pam,ken,sarah and gf. Was waiting for her, since she wanted to go the bathroom. I swear i would never play arcade, its SO freakign exp LOL, and its pointless

 I have been relatively busy recently, but compared to last few weeks, it has been quite relaxing and chilling, with just my work in place, and especially with my holiday coming up. (Not tat it makes a huge difference since i dun even go to uni, LOL!) So today will be my 1st ever sleeping-late-day for a while, since i always start work at 5am, so i always have to wake up around 4.35am at the latest, especially since my gf is with me, she takes longer time to prepare than i do..zzz

Last year at the gym, still trying to be a big tank ass muscular freak, but failed LOL, but would join up relatively soon :)

 For the past few days, i have come to realise alot of things, and just been telling myself, life isnt all tat  hard, and sometimes it may seem hard, u just gotta try ur hardest to get wat u wan. And i learn to not try as hard, cause wats meant to be urs has to be urs, u dun really have to try so hard to achieve it. But anyway, i am planning to get my phone signed up and gym signed up relatively soon. But the thing is....for all of u who actually goes to the gym, u noe.. if u wanna see solid and stable progress, u have to..HAVE TO always buy and take protein shake, cause u wud constantly get hungry when u start lifting weights. I have experienced that kinda suffering before. Just keep getting hungry every hour or two, has juz been pain in the arse.

Ramen at Winthrop village, after work. We actually waited for 30 mins for the shops to open, and the owner of the shop was so happy to see customers waiting for his food haha, moreover, he kinda recognises me back during my high school days.

Owner treated me and my gf a strawberry drink, tasted more like frozen raspbery from some other store, but still, its free, wat more can u ask for :)

Stupid gf's porridge with the egg, tasted relatively good

 I know i have mentioned this so many times, but recently i juz started to realise, ken sarah and matt are just really good friends to me nowadays, and those 3 would listen to my bitching whenever i needa bitch, and believe it feels so good, when u know defs, theres gonna be some1 there for u at the end of the day, whenever shit hits the fan. So again, i would like to take this opportunity, to hand my spotlight over to these 3 friends that really, have made an impact in my life. Of course, nevertheless, all the people out there, following closely to read my blogs, my girl friend, my jie, and all the other readers, u are all much appreciated as well :)

So finally, after blogging on wat has happened, its finally the time, for me to blog about my all-time favourite song, Parachute by Cheryl Cole.

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall down.

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
Won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold onto me
I'll hold onto you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

 I have bolded one particular part of this song, cause i seriously realised that is so true.
Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold onto me
I'll hold onto you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

Most of the times, we think so much and tell ourselves alot of bad stuff during late night when we cant fall asleep, and i read it somewhere last time, most of the comments that u make for urself, are the worst compared to the others. Cheryl Cole has again, made my day, with her truthful, yet straight to the point lyrics, You are ur own WORST enemy, and u will never ever win. And that is so....true. We tend to think so much when u cant fall asleep, and most of it are so negative, especially when u reflect on what happened, or that u had a bad day, u just somehow twisted into some kinda rocket science and finally concluding that its all ur fault, and how u shudnt exist in this world and what not ( i know it sounds ridiculous, but it kinda does feel like tat sometimes esp when u feel that ur useless in certain situations) So anyways, again, she ditches everything, and juz says " just hold onto me, i will hold onto u, its u and me up against the world". So yes, i love how she sings it,  she makes it sound so simple. Fuck everyone? its just gonna be us now, up against the whole world, theres no need to care wat others think and do, just stick our own unique ways, and juz overcome obstacles, cause tats wat life is about.

Love and signing off,
Ideal

Cheryl Cole

I have been wanting to post this for a while, since last few weeks. If you know me well enough, my favourite singer is Cheryl Cole, because i like her two songs, Parachute and Fight for this love. Although she hasnt had alot of songs topping the charts even in the music history. As far as i know, theres parachute, fight for this love, 3 words, promise this and lastly the flood. All these songs arent tat old to begin with anyway. Btw, she was from Girl's Aloud, or is still from it? O_O dunno not sure...Moving on!

i must state why i like this song BEFORE u even start listening it. Unlike MANY love songs, this love song, is relatively different, in such a way that, it only encourages ppl to love, and not think too much. As far u guys know me, the main reason that completely shits me when i listen to asian music, is that its constantly mentioning how love hurts and bulls like tat HAHA.

Fight For This Love Lyrics

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get your hurt

Is it better is it worse
Are we sitting in reverse
Its just like we´re going backwards
I know where I want this to go
We´re driving fast but lets go slow
what i dont wanna do is crash no

Just know you´re not in this thing alone
There´s always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we´re growing apart
Let´s just go back back back back back to the start

Anything that´s worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
Its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

Now everyday aint gon´ be no picnic
Love aint no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can´t be afraid of the dark

Just know you´re not in this thing alone
There´s always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we´re growing apart
Let´s just go back back back back back to the start

Anything that´s worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
Its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

I don´t know where we´re heading
I´m willing and ready to go
We can´t drive it so fast we just need to slow down
And just roll

Anything that´s worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
Its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
Its worth having its worth fighting for (Oh)

k i bolded everything i like, as expected tats pretty much the whole damm song LOL. I just really really really really..(i mean really..) like the fact that how cheryl cole has made this love song, into..something SO SIMPLE, and tats wat love should really be, i reckon. It says, if u ever think we r growing apart, lets just go back to the start. In a relationship, if a couple fights, TRUST ME, its never ever gonna end up good, so u know what? shut the fuck up, and go back to the start. Try to tok about it later, just dun bombard everything out at the wrong time.

Sometimes, relationship seems to progress a lil faster than usual, then suddenly shit happens, u wud feel like shit, cause u 2 been together and progressing so fine throughout, and u expected to be like tat forever, but tat aint gonna happen. Know wat? if u are moving a lil fast, jus slow down? like the lyrics say.

Lastly, i like this phrase. And it doesnt just apply to me. Its juz life in general. in the lyrics, it says, If theres anything worth having, fight for it, quitting's outa question. Thats so true. In life, u are not lost even if the whole world is against u. Ur falling everytime u try, yes, but who cares, keep trying. DUN EVER QUIT. if u quit on urself, tats the end of u. i really really like this song, and i hope u guys wud spend sometime listening to it, and hopefully, like it as well.

Love,
Ideal

Feathers on the floor

Hey ya guys, hows going? hehe, it hasnt been all tat long since i last blogged, but the reason tat i wanna blog today is:
1. bored
2. good way to keep myself and u guys entertained LOL

I havent actually planned on blogging untill next week or the coming weekend but i guess, the more often i blog, the better it is right? (i hope? LOL) Well okays, as u guys have noticed, unless ur FKING ^&*() blind, i have put up a shoutbox on my blog (YES!, wanted to do it for so long, but havent got time to do it), Just so if u guys wanna leave me a message or a comment..on something tat i blog. please refrain from flaming cause..come on, wats the point lol. Anyways, before i start to write actual stuff, i juz wanna tell u guys, its funny how the busy period passes, and u realise it is weird to not be busy. last week or the week before, i had around 20 hours of work per week, 3 assignments dueing+inclass projects+mid semester exams coming. Now tat's over, i juz realise "errrr ok so wat now?" my work hours have been reduced, cause i heard the restaurant manager was trying to reduce every adults (21 years old+) work hours, because the wages and salaries for the year has been increasing compared to the past years. But i dun blame them, cause FRIDAY I GOT DOUBLE! or monday? i forgot, but anyways, double means i get double paid, cause of public holidays haha, so tat means if i work 4 hours, i get 8 hours of pay. I cant wait to get paid, so i can buy the stuff tat i wan T________T, i have been wanting to get myself a belt for so long but it costs so freaking much. zzzz

 Ok anyway, i dun wanna keep rambling on about my shopping shit, cause i aint a chick HAHA. So, we went to the city on sunday. We, referring to my cousin and adeline's cousin and herself, including me, just to walk around cause apparently their house has a home open for all the buyers, between 2pm-4pm. I had no choice, i had to go, since they all wanted to go. the reason tat i dun really wanna go is because i got no money! holy fuck! i never have money, i still owe my girl friend money, shit, how lame is tat, i shud save up, and not lose my cool hahaha. i swear before i pay off my debt, i wudnt buy A SHIT!, i swear...i swear...but most probs wud stil end up buying..zzzz

 After all those shopping we went to TOOK-BAE-KI, i think tat was the restaurant name? lol, it aint some luxurious korean restaurant but the food there is relatively decent, and i kinda like it, except, in every single dish theres onion...i HATE onions lolol.

 Okay, so we ordered 2 soups and 1 lame pancake, which i didnt  like cause of the onions (again...)

Thats it for the story, but before i ..finish this post. I am wondering, since when, have i ever changed my style of blogging. Comparing to last time, i was pretty serious and all, but now i am juz like ok fuck it, i juz write watever i wan, and dun give a shit LOL. i wonder if tats good or bad. Right now, all i can say is, i am still under pressure with the stuff going on, OR coming. But hopefully, money can cleanse and erase all my sorrow LOL, i sound so shallow like tat...wat happened to the song, price tag huh?hahahah. Well, i didnt mean it like tat. Of course money cant buy alot of things, but right now, it is kinda the only thing tat drives me, but hopefully, i wud join the gym soon, and have my muscle all pumping up hahaha. Well it isnt about wat i am anymore, its more about wat i do to make myself a better person :)

Btw incase, some of u havent figured it out, the black roses from last post i was writing about, was referring to human. Human are dark, meaning they r evil, and selfish, but lets tok stick to generality and majority of them, cause i dun wanna hear those bulls of " there are exceptions", cause just  about any1 can say tat to anything lol. Okay, so all those negative elements of human, sum up to be black, yes? jealousy, hatred, pain, selfishness, etc, it all comes down to black. And yet, roses are so pretty, because its normal colour is red. And if u go ask a person, "name me a flower name" i fking bet u, they will say roses, because its popular and its pretty. It even symbolises love on valentines day. So when the roses are pretty, ppl are being decieved, so in every human, like i mentioned before, theres an angel and a demon, and tats wat i am referring to, black roses are simply a contrast between the reality. Roses are bound to have thorns, and it hurts when people gets near u. Like i have mentioned before, in today's world, theres countless people that gets near u, so they can leech SOMETHING off u. If your being leeched off by someone, even juz a small amount, u shud really ask urself, what have they done to compensate those amount. I know i am being realistic here, but its just a mindset for all u ppl to have. :) Of course, finding out the truth sometimes hurt, just like those times, tat u realised ur close friend has been kinda decieving u, or back stabbing u. I wonder if i sound like a chick when i say all these LOL! well either way, i dun mind lolol, i aint caring too much about these stuffs either, but just wanted to clarify why i put tat as a title haha.

Well, theres not much else for me to say today, except, i wud like to thank all of those ppl, who are there for me, when the whole world is against me. I wud always let my walls come down for u guys :)

Love and signing off,
Ideal

Black roses

I realised all human are pretty much the same. Theres a number of facts that i needa mention:
1. We encounter different ppl everyday, and sometimes we think they behave like shit, and sometimes we think, they are very well mannered. I realised the reason not long ago. The reason of these imbalanced behaviours between different ppl is that, every1's living their own life, and during the fucked-up times, they give us attitudes, its because they are annoyed at their lives, comparing to those friendly ones who might juz have won a lotto draw? The reason i said these, is that i started working as a cashier at Hungry Jack's recently, i have met alot of different ppl, but i just thort, and wanted to mention, deep down, pretty much every1 is kind. :) but sometimes they r juz having a bad day.


2. 2nd thing i wanted to mention is the human nature of taking things for granted. Even i have witnessed this ugly nature of human in myself. Once i started working, i realise how i have taken things for granted with me not working. I realised how much does it cost to actually pay for my living expenses (other than living my house, and having mum to provide me dinner and lunch) Fuel prices, eating and transport expenses for uni, shopping expenses, the list goes on. When i wasnt working, i always thort " who cares, its only 10 bucks, why not spend it on the food, cause i am hungry right now". But right now i always think : " if i am so freaking hungry, and i really dun have a choice but to buy food, then i will buy it, but most probs i will starve and endure it till i am home, and have my mums food" Another thing that i have realised so crucially is the fuel prices. I know in malaysia, filling a tank or 2 doesnt hurt u guys, but in Australia fuel is considered to be very expensive. Due to my low accumlated shifts hours last week, i only earned around 150 after tax. My fuel was near zero, so i had to get a full tank, there goes 75 bucks. + i owe my girl friend 75 bucks. thats 1 whole week pay. I have discovered, when things come with ur own effort and determination, human starts to treasure and minimize the cost, and these are the perfect examples.

3. I wanted to mention this 1 last thing. Comparison. I have always witnessed this within myself sometimes, then i realised, k wtf, why am i comparing myself to those ppl. Positive comparison is good, happens when u try to achieve something, and u think highly of other ppl, and u try to figure out how they do things differently compared to how u do things and u evaluate. What's bad is that u completely drown urself in the pool of competition, where every1 juz fights without peace, and being compared and having to think that ur not good enuf isnt what life is about guys. So do compare once in a while, if the truth hurts, who the fuck cares? u r still urself? u got all the life time to make things better :)

 So, back to my life stories LOL. if you guys are juz a little bit interested haha. Me and my girl went to thai restaurant on friday. It was her 1st shift and i juz thort she kinda deserves that she wans, and apparently, i aint loving her alot to make her wait for 2 months for these food that shes been craving for ages. HAHA. Just the same old, nothing much. Pad Thai, Tom Yum soup, and Chili noodles for us

 I was at work all week, i guess it was 4 days, from monday to friday. So for most of you who know me personally, i aint the type to wait up early in the morning, and in fact i normally SLEEP early in the morning haha. So my mum said, shes liking this job of mine, cause this job forces me to have a regular sleep time. Cause, for all my shifts, i start at 5am, and depending on my manager, i might have to work till 11/12, but generally i finish earlier, which is always good for me to relax, and learn not to push myself too hard :)

 At HJ's other than the fact that the restaurant is always dirty, what really stands out is the fact that, i get zero customer per day LOL. Jk's, sometimes i get quite a lot, but sometimes its rather quiet. Working in this environment allows me to speak even better and faster english, cause i have to always constantly tok to customer, asking wat they want for the coffee/cappucino and replacements that they wanna make.

 On top of that, i get pretty much, all the nice managers backing me up. And of course, for shifts thats over 5 hours, we do get a break. So dumpster room is my friend LOL. seriousfuckingly, u freaking joking? HAHAH, nah i dun mind, it doesnt smell that bad, and i always bring my FREE hot chocolate with me (with 5 sugars LOL! fuck) and chill when i am on break  :)

 I forgot when was this, and i even forgot why we went to the city, but we did. Or maybe it was juz because my stupid girlfriend being whinny and naggy and noisy about going? Oh i know now, she wanted to get SOMETHING BIG for herself...that rang the bell hahaha. We went pass Myer and sat around for a bit, cause i was too tired. Its weird to see me being exhausted so easily just by walking around. All the ppl say, i am pretty much like my mum. I normally get awaken very easily (except when i am in deep sleep), i am relatively hygiene, SO FREAKING SCARED OF SUNLIGHT. On top of those lame shits, i am very easily tired just by walking around all day, ESPECIALLY when i am shopping with someone.

 We started guessing different prices for these sofa's when me and my girl were chilling. Just sitting on a 2000 dollars chair ( JUST A CHAIR. R U F$%^&*(ING KIDDING ME, that is bull mother shit...O_O) But it was relatively comfy, so why am i complaining hahaha

Lastly, after doing all those stuff, we went to a korean restaurant, where my gf nearly devoured a whole chunk of those food HAHA. Well i always wanted to blog earlier..than this, but i cudnt find my phone usb plug, so i cant transfer all these beloved photos to my blog, to entertain my readers haha. ANWAYS, i hope u enjoy today's post, and i will see u again.

Black roses are dark-coloured, and they wither away in no time. Dont they resemble something of us?

Love,
Ideal

Sparks and the missing puzzle

Yo! Hey! It has been a while, indeed, i must admit, the same old reason wud keep coming in, for excuses like : oh i have been so busy, oh i got my exams coming, oh i got fucked LOL. So yes, i have been very  very busy with my job, assignments, and mid sems and what not. And i do apologize, if u guys are patiently waiting for my blog post. Most definitely would reduce the frequency of posting, due to all these lame reasons. But overall, it has  been a blast for me, with alot of stuffs happening and what not, and i really do enjoy life at the moment. So again, i would be posting alot of pictures, hoping that they would be some sorta entertainment for u guys, also comes with me explaining what actually enlightened me and redeemed me throughout the week :)

 So for most of you who know me personally, my dad came all the way from malaysia to perth, to pay me, my bro and my mum a visit last week, and would be heading off relatively soon. Hes probs gonna go back tomorrow early morning, and of course throughout this week, it has been really good with his company, but he has this weird habit of doing everything and making everything clean, which makes it really hard for me, since i have been having a relatively tough week, and i had to keep up with his pace for the cleaning and such. However, in exchange, he brought us to Colours of thai, restaurant for dinner one night, and of course, for those who know me again, together with the restaurant, u guys should all admit that, eventho the prices for the food and drink are quite high, but its kinda worth it, and afterall the u cant always get tasty food such as these, anywhere in the world, especially with my mum's favourite, Pa si Lew noodle with beef, and my gf's pad thai, which both are served with light decoration.

 My gf's cousin juz came to perth recently, and its because of tat, i have been going out quite a bit, given that i still got tons of shits dueing. I got 2 assignments dueing, and a mid sem happening all in 1 week, and i had to start everything in that week, due to my part time work commitment, and it juz seems like i have been running with relatively slow speed in life. You know, its one of those times, u treasure every minute and every sec, so u get ur assignment done on time, and moreover, if u have to study, u are even more pressured to correctly allocate time accordingly. These peak periods happen every sem, one during mid sem, and one before final exam. I have experienced these alot, but this time, life has taught me another thing: If you dun make fullest outa everyday, u are better off being called a useless fuck. I dun mean to be offensive, but right now, i think, the more ppl dun work, the more tired they become. The more they dun work, the higher chance of them have thort that they have done enuf. but its not true u know, if u work+study at the same time+worrying and applying for your job applications, it makes a big difference. Right now, i only get 1/2 days off in a week, and believe me or not, i do feel alive. I feel like i am not wasting anytime, and i am trying my hardest to make the most outa everything and everyday, and tat defines my way of life :) Life is not a destination, its a journey.

 So since i am being a fucking boss, i tell everyone off in the family who doesnt work, such as my gf, and my cousin sometimes. well, not exactly telling them off, but juz asking for help for the stupiest thing ever, such as getting me a drink, when i can do it myself, or asking them to turn off my laptop, which of course, i can do it faster if i am the 1 doing it. The reason that i have been acting like tat is tat, i have juz been relatively tired and exhausted with exams and assignments, and more importantly work. By the time i have reached home, my body tells me i am dying, and straight away i need some rest. And tough times like these, dun allow me to rest, because i still needa finish my stupid tax assignments,and study for auditting.

 One of the days last week, my dad's church friend invited us to dinner, and dad and mum seemed very happy, regardless of my exhaustion, i felt happy to see them like tat as well. I do admit, i havent been spending alot of time with my dad, and i guess thats juz how boys do stuff. They dont like to convey alot of touching words, and they just assume everyone knows that they r thinking, which again, brought to the point of argument happened last night with my girl. But nevertheless we solved everything, so its all good :) That picture was a view of our stuff, when we were waiting for the host to finish cooking. I was bored so i took a picture of whats happening, so i can show u guys on the blog anyway :)

 I have to mention one very important as well. Although i have been repeating myself, but i juz cant seem to be emphasizing enuf how much i appreciate having matt around. Be it little or bigger stuffs, hes always been there for me all these while. I wanted to fix my emulator for PSX and i needed his help, so i went all the way to his place for him to fix it. But of course, everything regarding PC, to matt, would juz be a piece of cake. He can solve anything ranging from hacking microsoft office, and windows operating systems, to fixing minor stuffs such as games and personalisation of the computer. After i got it fixed, he proceeded to help my girl regarding her new blog domain. It would be launched relatively soon, and the web address is : www.adeliciouscookie.com, if i aint wrong. I was bored, so i went to play with millie. She doesnt let my girl to scratch her, but she loves me to no end, and she juz wants me to keep scratching her hahah. But i have been seeing her quite a lot, from year 9 till now. And definitely she has grown so much, and now that shes so familiar with me, she doesnt bark anymore, and whenever i am with her, she just keeps quiet, and watch me and matt talk.

 Ever since i started working at HJ's, i started making friends as i go. These two girls from taiwan are really cool and friendly when i first worked, so i asked them to meet up last night, for karaoke and dinner party, at the new japanese restaurant thats been opened near metros city. Its called bonzai japanese restaurant, and i really like the mood there, with the chilled lighting and settings. Especially with my good friends, nights like these, just cant get any better.

 This was one of the side dishes that i ordered. I think its called golden crab claws, theres only 3 on the dish, but priced around 7 bucks. It tasted relatively decent, compare to the other jap restaurants that i have been to, and my girl really liked these claws in particular. Hopefully, we will be heading off to that place sometime soon as well, with ken and sarah around.

 As usual, i got pissed cause i didnt know what to choose from, there werent alot of selections, but i wanted to get 1 chicken teriyaki, and a side dish. I had a hard time figuring what to order, but in the end, when the lady came, i juz said whatever tat came 1st in my mind. And it tasted good. WIN! hahaha Matt was jus getting to know rachel and emily, so chatting with them, seemed fun to him. Matt has been such a good friend, both to me, and to the others. Hes actually just the only one from my good friend list, that actually does make an effort to know the friends that i bring, and he does it with alot of happiness and making my other friends feel welcome. I really like that part of him, which i said again repeatedly, hes a really cool guy, but sometimes he juz does things a lil slower, that causes him to be NOT-SO-PUNCTUAL ey matt? if ur reading this, u would know wat i mean HAHA. but ur good bro :) hahaha

Just the usual karaoke, but it seemed to me, like hit studio has better songs than utopia. Maybe we should start going to hit studio more often than before, and juz stop going to utopia. Utopia is only more famous because of its bakery and bubble tea facility. Due to me drinking too much of bubble tea recently, i have come to get so sick of bubble teas LOL.

Relatively long post, but judging from juz the writings and words, it aint a long post, not when its compared to the real long ass ones anyway hahah. So i hope, u guys are enjoying ur life, loving ur life, loving ur close friends, and family, cause if u arent doing that, u should START DOING IT!

Love,
Ideal