Feathers on the floor

Hey ya guys, hows going? hehe, it hasnt been all tat long since i last blogged, but the reason tat i wanna blog today is:
1. bored
2. good way to keep myself and u guys entertained LOL

I havent actually planned on blogging untill next week or the coming weekend but i guess, the more often i blog, the better it is right? (i hope? LOL) Well okays, as u guys have noticed, unless ur FKING ^&*() blind, i have put up a shoutbox on my blog (YES!, wanted to do it for so long, but havent got time to do it), Just so if u guys wanna leave me a message or a comment..on something tat i blog. please refrain from flaming cause..come on, wats the point lol. Anyways, before i start to write actual stuff, i juz wanna tell u guys, its funny how the busy period passes, and u realise it is weird to not be busy. last week or the week before, i had around 20 hours of work per week, 3 assignments dueing+inclass projects+mid semester exams coming. Now tat's over, i juz realise "errrr ok so wat now?" my work hours have been reduced, cause i heard the restaurant manager was trying to reduce every adults (21 years old+) work hours, because the wages and salaries for the year has been increasing compared to the past years. But i dun blame them, cause FRIDAY I GOT DOUBLE! or monday? i forgot, but anyways, double means i get double paid, cause of public holidays haha, so tat means if i work 4 hours, i get 8 hours of pay. I cant wait to get paid, so i can buy the stuff tat i wan T________T, i have been wanting to get myself a belt for so long but it costs so freaking much. zzzz

 Ok anyway, i dun wanna keep rambling on about my shopping shit, cause i aint a chick HAHA. So, we went to the city on sunday. We, referring to my cousin and adeline's cousin and herself, including me, just to walk around cause apparently their house has a home open for all the buyers, between 2pm-4pm. I had no choice, i had to go, since they all wanted to go. the reason tat i dun really wanna go is because i got no money! holy fuck! i never have money, i still owe my girl friend money, shit, how lame is tat, i shud save up, and not lose my cool hahaha. i swear before i pay off my debt, i wudnt buy A SHIT!, i swear...i swear...but most probs wud stil end up buying..zzzz

 After all those shopping we went to TOOK-BAE-KI, i think tat was the restaurant name? lol, it aint some luxurious korean restaurant but the food there is relatively decent, and i kinda like it, except, in every single dish theres onion...i HATE onions lolol.

 Okay, so we ordered 2 soups and 1 lame pancake, which i didnt  like cause of the onions (again...)

Thats it for the story, but before i ..finish this post. I am wondering, since when, have i ever changed my style of blogging. Comparing to last time, i was pretty serious and all, but now i am juz like ok fuck it, i juz write watever i wan, and dun give a shit LOL. i wonder if tats good or bad. Right now, all i can say is, i am still under pressure with the stuff going on, OR coming. But hopefully, money can cleanse and erase all my sorrow LOL, i sound so shallow like tat...wat happened to the song, price tag huh?hahahah. Well, i didnt mean it like tat. Of course money cant buy alot of things, but right now, it is kinda the only thing tat drives me, but hopefully, i wud join the gym soon, and have my muscle all pumping up hahaha. Well it isnt about wat i am anymore, its more about wat i do to make myself a better person :)

Btw incase, some of u havent figured it out, the black roses from last post i was writing about, was referring to human. Human are dark, meaning they r evil, and selfish, but lets tok stick to generality and majority of them, cause i dun wanna hear those bulls of " there are exceptions", cause just  about any1 can say tat to anything lol. Okay, so all those negative elements of human, sum up to be black, yes? jealousy, hatred, pain, selfishness, etc, it all comes down to black. And yet, roses are so pretty, because its normal colour is red. And if u go ask a person, "name me a flower name" i fking bet u, they will say roses, because its popular and its pretty. It even symbolises love on valentines day. So when the roses are pretty, ppl are being decieved, so in every human, like i mentioned before, theres an angel and a demon, and tats wat i am referring to, black roses are simply a contrast between the reality. Roses are bound to have thorns, and it hurts when people gets near u. Like i have mentioned before, in today's world, theres countless people that gets near u, so they can leech SOMETHING off u. If your being leeched off by someone, even juz a small amount, u shud really ask urself, what have they done to compensate those amount. I know i am being realistic here, but its just a mindset for all u ppl to have. :) Of course, finding out the truth sometimes hurt, just like those times, tat u realised ur close friend has been kinda decieving u, or back stabbing u. I wonder if i sound like a chick when i say all these LOL! well either way, i dun mind lolol, i aint caring too much about these stuffs either, but just wanted to clarify why i put tat as a title haha.

Well, theres not much else for me to say today, except, i wud like to thank all of those ppl, who are there for me, when the whole world is against me. I wud always let my walls come down for u guys :)

Love and signing off,
Ideal